Getting off the Gluten - My Primal Journey page 2

[Want2BeAPinup]

Thanks so much for the words of encouragement!! Everything was going fine...until Friday night. I haven't had an excuse to go out drinking in awhile so I did and I got happily buzzed, and then ate all kinds of junk ALL WEEKEND. I feel miserable. I feel sick and achy and far older than my 26 years.

I started thinking about it and realized, because of my weird dieting past, I am prone to the all or nothing mentality which is doing my body a huge disservice. I could have had my 4 beers and been fine with it if I had, let's say, counted weight watcher points; or I could have had rum and diet coke if I was counting carbs, but because there are far fewer rules, I feel like I don't know how to indulge moderately without feeling like I have completely screwed up. Which is a very slippery slope for me.

I know I can figure this out somehow, I am just kind of unsure of myself right now. I almost feel like I should pick a more structured "diet" for weight loss and then use the primal way of eating as my maintenance. That sounds completely silly, I know. But I am really confused and wanting this weight to just disappear.

Ugh.

Thanks for reading.

[Want2BeAPinup]

I'm going to sneak back in here quietly to start over just in case this doesn't actually happen. I hate that feeling of public failure.

So here's today's plan:
Breakfast:
Coffee w/ hwc;
Smoothie - (1 Scoop Healthy for Life Vanilla Protein Powder, 4 Tbsp HWC, blueberries, raspberries, 1/3 banana, ice water, Virgin Coconut Oil)

Lunch: Quiche with sweet potatoes
Dinner: Steak and Salad
Dessert: Pistachios and Dark Chocolate

Exercise: Maybe some yoga, rebounding and isometrics.

[Want2BeAPinup]

Yesterday did not go as planned.

I started out doing the right things. But lack of energy from poor sleep the night before coupled with poor food choices made me very lethargic and moody. In an a misguided attempt at re-energizing, I ate things I again shouldn't have and succumbed to emotional eating of foods that are downright embarrassing to admit.

So today is a fasting day because I don't even want to look at food, let alone have to run through the criteria to determine if it is a "good" choice or a "bad" choice and the collective emotions that attach to either of those labels.

[Want2BeAPinup]

I am not even going to say everything I had originally planned to say here because some of my writing this morning just went too deep and felt too raw. I don't think I am ready for that yet.

Here's today's plan:
Pedaling under my desk all day
Walking at lunch if it doesn't storm
Transformetrics after work

Breakfast:
Coffee w/ HWC
Smoothie - strawberries, virgin coconut oil, protein powder, ice water, hwc

Lunch:
Salad - romaine, cucumber, tomato, onions, avocado, chicken breast, cheddar cheese, Good Seasons Italian Dressing

Snacks:
apricots
almonds
cucumber
orange pepper
tomatoes

Dinner:
Grass fed delmonico steaks
Mashed cauliflower

[June68]

Congrats for jumping back in and giving it another go.

[Want2BeAPinup]

Thank you!

[Jamilyn121]

I think there are many of us around that have had to sneak back in through the back door, hoping nobody noticed that we had disappeared for a while. Welcome back, you've got this! I'm right there with you, taking it choice by choice.

[June68]

Like what happened to you to make you change, changing to a healthy person won't happen overnight. It's a continual process and I think it's natural to backslide now and then. I think doing that sometimes just reaffirms why you want to change in the first place and why changing the way you eat is good for you. 100% resolve isn't always achievable, or desirable. If you want something bad enough, you'll get there.

[Want2BeAPinup]

Thank you both! I realized after how horrible I felt physically, mentally and even emotionally from eating processed garbage, fake ingredients, etc. that I do not want that quality of life. I can't believe I must have felt like this often enough before that I thought it was normal. Now, I feel completely off my game after just a little bit of the food I used to eat regularly. And although weight loss is a big goal and motivator, I am truly motivated by wanting to be healthy and feel better. I don't want to lose time with people I care about doing things I love because I ate junk that made me feel sick and lethargic.

[Want2BeAPinup]

Well yesterday was pretty gluten free. It was a little tough because we had a family get together and there was ice cream, but I vividly recalled how bad ice cream made me feel last time I tried to eat it and I decided to pass. I was hungry after dinner though so I ate a pear, some salad and some olives. A1 on my steak and bottled ranch dressing were my indiscretions that evening.

Here's the plan today:
Breakfast:
Smoothie - hwc, virgin coconut oil, blueberries, 1/4 banana, protein powder
coffee with hwc

Lunch:
Salad - lettuce, cheese, tomatoes, Good Seasons Italian dressing
Almonds

Dinner:
Broccoli cheddar quiche

Snacks:
Almonds
Apples