OK, last night I really messed up, but only realised it in retrospect. Sometimes I do really dumb things and then am surprised when all hell breaks loose! While I was making dinner I ate quite a bit of bacon fat, really fatty pieces only lightly cooked (ie. with most of the fat still there) and then brusselsprouts after that and a rich stew all on a tummy that had fasted for 24 hours. Talk about a recipe for explosive diarrhoea! One way to make sure you lose weight on your fast! Boy! did I have nasty stomach cramps and an upset tummy! When I woke up this morning it was still feeling a little on edge so skipped breakfast until it felt better - only had a boiled egg and small glass of kefir. All is well now but I am trying to be extra careful - and trying to pound it into my head that it is best to ease back into eating carefully. It has been so very long since I fasted that I forgot all these seemingly unimportant details.
Breafast: boiled egg, kefir
Lunch: greek yoghurt with a few nuts, strawberries and blackberries. Black tea with cream and stevia.
Dinner: hamburger patty in lettuce, cabbage, mustard and homemade mayo. Some salad.
Got a 'new' washing machine today as the old one died a horrible drawn out death a few days ago. We found a nice second hand one at a used appliance store that we have used before. It has a few scratches but I am thrilled with it. It is so quiet and efficient and snazzy It has a transparent lid so the kids and I have been watching the laundry getting washed We don't have TV so we have to resort to watching the laundry going round and the water going in and out - ha ha.
Aunt Flo arrived in all her glory this morning, the sooner she arrives the sooner she can leave for another month! I have felt surprisingly non-achy, but definitely bloated. Not going anywhere near the scale until she is well gone! This last week has been a tough one with a sick child and all the other stuff going on! No real exercise and hardly any sleep. I am feeling surprisingly ok considering, but I do feel as though my fat loss has slowed down as a result. I may just be imagining things- but I don't really know. Will check the day after Aunt Flo leaves to get a feel for how I am doing. I know that there is more to this than the numbers on a scale, but I also need to know if what I am doing is working, or if I need to tweak something a little more. Because, I want to be healthy and part of that is losing pounds of fat. If that isn't coming off I want to know!
Another one of my longterm health issues is extremely dry skin - especially on my feet and hands. My feet are terrible to behold - I can never get on top of the callouses and cracks. Even the tips of my toes crack and bleed, my heels crack and the skin under my big toes peels back and gets really painful. It is really ugly - but more than that it gets really painful and can mess with getting around well. As a kid I never had issues with cracking feet and I lived barefoot. Is it the omega 3 and omega 6 balance that affects this? Or some kind of deficiency? I am so tired of all the skin issues, warts, skin tags, DSAP, cracks and callouses etc etc. Enough already! It would be so lovely to be able to go places and talk to people without their eyes wandering over to my skin issues. Even when they don't say anything, their eyes say it all anyway. I just want to say, "Please look at me and not my skin. I am not infectious, I haven't been bitten by insects, and I do try to take care of it all. I do care - I just can't fix it yet..." I think my worst moment was when the lady giving me my first and last pedicure, looked my legs up and down and went and got herself gloves before she would touch me. I understood and yet I was mortified and just wanted to run away. Not doing that again - too humiliating. (and she ended up cutting me too and I got an infected nail !)
Oh well, you know, at least I can see and smell and sing and enjoy my dear family. They love me and I am very blessed to have such precious people in my life. I have myriads of blessings surrounding me - it doesn't really matter that my skin is ugly if I look at it that way. A friend of ours passed away yesterday, melanoma that metastisized and destroyed him. I am alive and more healthy than I have been for a while, life is good and I am going to enjoy it to the full. Finances have improved a bit, so I can go grocery shopping without wondering how I am going to pay for the food. Still have to be real carefu,l but at least something coming in and DH getting a lot more work. Whew!