After much discussion we have pretty much decided it won't work for us at the moment. I am really sad and yet relieved too. 500 sq ft is not enough to live in as DH is working long hours and would never have time to add anything on before winter hits. We also are unable to use any of our savings to buy materials as that all has to go to moving my parents back to SA. I have to really work on my attitude with regards to that. I know that we need to do this and that once they are moved it will be a huge weight off. But it is requiring so much sacrifice and sometimes it is hard to choose that. We have to get about $13,000 saved as fast as we can to get them moved and settled. But in the meantime we have to send them about $500 to $1000 a month to just keep them going. This doesn't leave much - at least DH is really busy and hopefully we can get this chore done. 6 months from now hopefully the folks passports will be here and we can see them one last time and send them on their way. So much can happen in 6 months though - just have to get my focus on the happy things of where I am now and not think about all the things that are being sacrificed.
It is fun to hear about your sheep and goats Pam, they sound like real characters! I hope we will be able to do some animals one of these days. Yes, I really do think it would be a wonderful experience for the kids! And that is part of why I am champing at the bit so to say. They are growing so fast and I would dearly love to be on our own place for all of our sakes. The kids were crying yesterday because they miss our old place in the Carolina's - 9 acres of beautiful forest and about 3 acres of that was open and full of gardens and fruit/ nut trees. Room to run and play and explore ... Of course they don't remember how they hated the chiggers and fire ants and how beastly hot it was But, they do miss having their own area and space.
I decide to take a page out of Ecks book and have started taking my magnesium just before bed and a teaspoon of honey. Still needing the melatonin though to get to sleep. I wake up about 6:30 without my alarm, but am still tired and have a hard time getting going.
I think a lady is coming to pick up one of our bantam hens today - then we'll be down to 2 banties. Just easier for now. The kids each keep a pet and that is it. Just depressed today. It seems that no matter how much we try we just can't catch up on all the demands on us. My poor hubby is working his tail off to support us and then to relocate my parents and get them set up in SA. Sorry, enough moping! Time to get positive again... taking deep breaths and going to pot some plants instead. Let it all go and trust that one day things will come together for us.
Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
Primal low: 186 lbs
Current weight: 224.2 lbs
S.T. goals: 30 day reset - auto immune protocol
Goal weight: 140 lbs
"You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."