OK, been really busy in the yard and garden lately. I am getting some pretty substantial muscles in my upper arms Still plenty fat over the top though. Aunt Flo has come to visit - and she came with a BANG this time round! I had serious cramps for a while yesterday. Feel bloated today and somewhat tired. Did not eat well today, I was needing more protein than I had, ate greek yoghurt at lunch time, handful of macadamias, about 2 ounces of biltong, a date roll and a glass of milk for a snack and then for dinner I had a delicious bowl of beef stew ( the lamb neck I had bought for lamb stew was off so the dog has been enjoying that!) and a bowl of raspberries, blueberries, blackberries and about 1/4 banana.
I definitely seem to want more in the way of carbs when Aunt Flo is on her way. Yesterday I was sorting some stuff in the kitchen when I came across some evil chocolate lurking in the darkness. I was hungry and decided to have some. I grabbed two handfuls and started to stuff them in my face like I used to. Then I stopped, and told myself, "if you want to have some, take your time and taste it at least" And someone must have changed the recipe because it really didn't taste good at all anymore, and the after taste was yuk! So I took the whole lot and tossed them into the trash can outside. Not giving them to the kids either! Though I am sure they would have happily chomped them down.... amazing though how just that little bit of sugar got my cravings and old habits going! I have really been on the prowl today and fortunately I don't have anything bad left in the house. Hope to get my balance back again tomorrow.
My heel is not so good at the moment. It fluctuates from really painful and tight, to me hardly noticing it. Sometimes when I walk there is a weird little click sound and feeling where the tendon and bone connect. I do find that it settles down pretty well when I don't wear closed shoes. Was looking online at patterns for moccassins - think I might take the plunge and try to make some. Looking around at some supplies and going to just be brave and not expect them to be perfect.
I was prowling around the front 'yard' trying to track down all the cactus plants so that the kids and I can dig them up. Nasty things are very good at hiding in the grass and have really long spines. Our poor dog keeps on walking on them - she has to be pretty tough though, because she only hops a couple of paces and then carries on as normal.
I was walking the dog in the East Pasture today and have had snakes at the back of my mind with the weather being the way it is. Pooch jumped sideways all of a sudden and we both had a nice little adrenalin rush - just another snake skin this time We found one under our window the other day too - a perfect snake skin, everything in place and not a 'scale' missing. The kids were thrilled to have it I think it is just a garter snake - there are hundreds here!
I think I need to do some measuring again in a few days time, it will be my 4 month 'anniversary' of starting primal. I am getting pretty brown on my arms and face and neck, good old farmers tan. Better find my bikini top and get outside in my little semi private spot and get more of me tanned. I bought a cable and lock yesterday that I have fastened our yard gate with. I am so tired of having the landlord's kids walzing in whenever they want and before you know it the landlord or his wife are in the yard too. I am afraid I am a person who needs my own space and I want to be able to choose when and if others come into my space. The previous renters had no boundaries and the kids (can be sweet, but they are little busters that don't understand no!!) ran amok. Also, our dog is a complete idiot when it comes to traffic and we live on a pretty busy road, if she got out she would be out into the street in a heartbeat. And once out, she becomes extremely deaf... I am sure the landlord will think I am weird - but that works for me, how terribly inconvenient for them - now they have to watch their own kids instead of expecting me to look after them without ever a word about whether it is ok with me! Ok, now I feel so much better It is funny how much I love looking at the gate and the lock, such a relief!
Well, gotta go have a shower and head for my bed... here's to getting back on track tomorrow!
Start weight: 225.5 lbs Feb 14th 2012. Height: 5'7"
Primal low: 186 lbs
Current weight: 221.4 lbs
Goal weight: 140 lbs
"You are free to choose, BUT you are not free from the consequences of your choices."