On my post for yesterday I noted that I was 'peckish' at bedtime. Today I had breakfast, and then realized I would not be hungry in time for an early enough lunch to be hungry again for dinner. (Lordy, how complex!) I decided to skip lunch, but around 3:00 I thought, I'm getting a little hungry.
Then I stopped.
During my fast, I was not hungry for the first two and a half DAYS!
How could I possible have been peckish Wednesday night? Or this afternoon?
I've decided I need to add another category of hunger, the Interested in Food, so I'll Call Myself Hungry. (Wow, some people really go overboard with the middle names.) Nickname: Interested Hunger. I think Interested is the offspring of Mouth Hunger and Habit Hunger.
I'm in the habit of eating meals, well, why not, they're lovely, and I have all this good food in the fridge, stuff I know tastes good, so here comes Interested Hunger. She wants to eat, and so she convinces me that, yes, that sensation MUST be hunger.
I don't think it is.
How can I go from 2 1/2 days, to six HOURS? I know there is natural variation, but come on! That's just ridiculous. And there have been two days of meals since the fast, so I don't think it is that my body is still hungry from the fast.
I think True Hunger may be so subtle, that all these other Hungers crowd in to take its place. And like a lady desperate to have a boyfriend, any boyfriend, I am not taking to time to wait for Mr. Right Hunger.
This irks me.
I like to eat. If True Hunger is only going to come around ever day or two, my opportunities to eat will be severely limited.
I have two options as I see it.
Screw True Hunger. Eat with these other Hungers, (well, maybe not Mind Hunger - she's a little psycho) and enjoy myself. I'm still losing a little weight, right?
Hope that once I have healed myself down to a good weight, True Hunger will come around more often. Like when you give up looking for love, start getting out and enjoying life, and the next thing you know, you find The One.
Why is the right choice always so obnoxiously hard?