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[Candy in Wonderland]

If it hurts why say it doesn't? And getting a kiss on it maybe doesn't take away the physical pain, it sure helps the healing .

[Judg]

I yelled like crazy too. And the last one was born at home with the older kids listening. Hey, she came too fast.

One time when my husband was in the midst of a kidney stone attack, he just disconnected, the pain was so great. The doctor asked him questions, and he stared, completely unable to grasp what was being said. Good thing I was there to answer for him. Poor guy.

Happy healing!

[Sabine]

Here's what I did yesterday:

Up at 6:15
Vitamins

10:30 1/4 lb beef patty topped with
2 eggs over easy, fried in lard
1/2C crookneck casserole
2C curried cauliflower

6:15 1C pot roast with a good chunk of fat
1/3C gravy
1C thai cucumber salad
2C brussel sprouts with bacon
2/3 of a roasted beet

60 minutes walking

water: 10 glasses

Bed at 9:15

Notable items: the postman asked me if I've lost some weight. Yay!

I got hungry at about 3:00, but it felt too close to dinner. I had pot roast and veges planned, and I wanted to enjoy them with my family, not eat in the afternoon, and then be too full for dinner. (And probably eat it anyways, and feel too full.) So, I decided to wait. I toyed with the idea of 'just a snack', but as soon as I thought of an apple with almond butter, I started listing off some more protein and vegetables I would need to go with it, and it turned into a meal! Nope, I wanted to wait for my REAL meal.

About 5:00 it started getting harder, as in, I was now HUNGRY. But I drank some water, and as before, it passed. Lovely how real hunger will pass, unlike cravings. Our mind really is more powerful than our body, but oh the simple uncomplicated joys of a being that knows how to take 'no' for an answer! I love you, True Hunger!

Ate my dinner when I planned to, then kept myself busy so I wouldn't keep going. I want to concentrate on eating to fullness, and then STOPPING. So I left the room, then did some dishes, then went for a walk. Worked well.

[Pebbles67]

I am also learning about true hunger as opposed to cravings. It's a revelation.

[KerryK]

Is that you find yourself nodding knowingly, starting with surprise at some shared experience/opinion, or leaping to press the reply button and chime in excitedly to a phantom conversation or musing that occurred months ago. *sigh*

So, Sabine, I'm popping in to say how much I'm enjoying your journal and to say "me too!" "beautifully put" "ooh, ooh, I know what you mean" "ha ha ha" "lovely piece of writing there" "what's the recipe?" "kindred spirit"

OK, back to reading. I can't wait to catch up and join in the exchanges real time...

Kerry

[Sabine]

Kerry, thanks for stopping by. I know just what you mean. Such a strange facet of internet life.
I'm glad you are enjoying the journal. I know other people's journals have really helped me, for motivation and learning. And downright fun.
Talk to you in real time soon!

[Judg]

Sabine, enjoy the rush of being in control. I mean, really enjoy it. Wallow in it. Remember it. Then the next time you're tempted, you can remember how good it feels NOT to give in.

[jenn26point2]

What is crookneck casserole???

[Sabine]

Hmmm, that would be an interesting exercise, the next time I put off eating.
Wallow in it.
I was talking with Eldest while he was here, about the rush that being a dictator must be, what with the tenacity and desperation that people cling to it, when they could just retire at their peak, probably still considered a hero, with a generous pension, plus all their skim, and spend the rest of their lives on the beach somewhere. But, no, they have to hang on for 32 years!
Maybe I should indulge my inner dictator in this personal way, really let rip.

Okay, what I came here to say, before I got distracted by Judg ( ) :

Last week I read 'Confessions of a Carb Queen' by Susan Blech. It is a weight-loss memoir. She lost 250 pounds, mostly through participating in a rice-diet clinic in North Carolina. What I got out of it, though, was a memoir of extremes.

She was an obsessive exerciser, then an obsessive eater, then an obsessive dieter. I am glad she lost her excess weight, and she certainly looks and sounds much healthier. But I couldn't help but wonder, at the end of the book, what her next obsession would be.

I don't have an obsessive personality (I think!). But I do wonder, if there is something that would be as obvious to others, as this was to me. Journalling is supposed to help me with that. Lay out my thoughts so that I can see patterns. And I have seen a few. But I haven't read back over my whole journal, the way I meant to. It seems too daunting. Like I need a quiet space, a bunch of highlighters, and a pack of index cards.

So...anyone have thoughts? Stuff that has popped out at you, and you wonder why I just don't see it? I'd be interested to hear.

[jenn26point2]

I haven't seen anything alarming... but I wasn't looking either. i think that's why I like your journal - there's no obession or extremes.