Thanks, PrimalCajun. You are always so good for my ego.
Coll- I wish I was the kind of person who was motivated by good stuff, but it is just not so. Pain, anger, fear; they all get me going. If I can only learn to use the MEMORY of them, and not get myself into the same pickles, I'll take that as a great step forward.
Lopisheep- Unconscious eating while reading is one of my biggest bugaboos. I just do not allow myself to eat during any 'snacky' type of food at all (still do it when I am eating 'meals' alone, though). Eating little bits somehow does not trigger any stopping response, even when the plate is empty, and if I am reading while I am doing it, I can look up and suddenly realize I have eaten EVERYTHING!
Lex- I think you are so right about not eating the 'cheat' alone. Maybe someday I will get to that point, but not now, and not for a good long time to come, I am sure.
Siobhan- I watch and re--watch all my McNaughton dvds. Sometimes when I am feeling like I just want SUGAR I will re-watch the parts on insulin response. I knew it was really sinking in when I found myself saying one day, 'I want the taste, but I don't want to subject my body to the insulin rollercoaster. I'll be hurting myself with cell damage, not just dealing with the sugar rush.' Wow, an actual episode of long-term thinking. I was impressed with myself! Also, I love my t-shirt.
I have been looking for a good image of a Brunhilde for possible use as an avatar. Or just a personal totem.
Longing- yes, yes it does! Squats should not be loved. It's official: you're a weirdo.
It is good to have company on our journey. This is different from any other time I have tried to lose weight. Not least, because the aspect of getting healthy is becoming more important to me than just weight loss. I try to remind myself daily how GOOD I feel now. That is worth a lot.