I was hungry on and off yesterday. Smelling that great food made it a little harder, but I managed not to throw myself outside any of it. Instead, I expended my energies on a project, and sewed a bag with pockets for my personal-DVD player and all its accessories. Looks pretty snazzy!
Here's how yesterday went:
Up at 5:00(good sleep except for strange dreams at the end)
Water: 10 glasses
Pains: a few, but definitely better
Bed at 10:00
If I can cancel the doctor's appointment without penalty, I'm going to do so, because they pains were of lesser intensity and fewer in quantity over the weekend. My body is healing itself, or all it needed was the threat of a doctor's visit to step in line. Who knows? If I have to pay anyhow(less than 24 hours notice), I'll go in and see what they say, but say 'no' to any expensive tests. Unless I am struck by a crippling pain.
I guess I am just a worry wart.
My period started today(Surprise! A week early.) which makes the abdominal pains issue even muddier. Grrr. Bodies. They sure keep you guessing.
Went to bed last night planning what to eat this morning (sausages with mushrooms and eggs). Woke up feeling completely normal and unhungry, but I will jump on that hunger as soon as it rears its head. Remember me complaining once (well, maybe more than once) that one of the problems with not getting hungry as often, is that it is hard to have all the great types of meals you want? Well, count it double for if you are only going to be eating every other day! Tomorrow will be my fourth fasting day. (Kind of interested to hear what the doctor will think of how I 'rested' my system.)
Lunch today is while meeting my friends for our Money Goals Support Group Meeting at IKEA. So I will be bringing cream cheese, capers, dill, and chopped red onion and buying two packs of their lox. Yum! Honey asked me if I would be having any of their meatballs. I wouldn't mind eating horsemeat, but those puppies have breadcrumbs in them, and their gravy- no, no, no. Sad, because I love them. My Dad used to make Klopps(meatballs) in a cream gravy, so they push happy childhood memory buttons. Add mashed potatoes and lingonberry jam, and I would be in tasting heaven. But not body heaven, after a few hours.
Just got caught up on Pedidoc's journal last night, and concerned to hear the results of her tests. How do things happen so quickly? Well, that we know about. They're always happening, unseen, and only appear to come out of nowhere. Made me think even more strongly about continuing the alternate day eating, for possible body repair effects. A new kind of superstition or totem, I guess. If I just do THIS, I can avoid THAT. But what else is there to do? Throw yourself completely to the fates? No, thank you. The illusion of control is better.
I guess I am not in a Zen mood this morning.