Great, can't wait to hear more!
Oh my goodness. They really are sounding serious, aren't they? Woot!
5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again
More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
- Lewis Mumford
Great, can't wait to hear more!
My Primal Journal: http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread53052.html
“I learned this, at least, by my experiment: that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.” - Henry David Thoreau, Walden
Honey filled out all kinds of (electronic) paperwork last night. I think that made it more real to him. There's nothing fun about paperwork. When you go on an interview, you get excited inside, start making plans in your head for how it will be to work with these people, what pay they will offer, will there be benefits. Sometimes you even start planning what you will bring to the Thanksgiving potluck lunch.
And then there's the let down.
No excitement or fantasy connected with paperwork, so I think it started to feel like, yes, I really HAVE been offered a job.
So, THEN he got excited. This was acted on.
This morning he will be going for his drug test.
I will be reorganizing my pantry so all these cans will fit in neatly. There are only three things I am not planning to keep: a can of hominy, the margarine, and a package of cheese 'product'. All else, even if not strictly primal, will be gleefully eaten by us. (Although I had one of the red velvet chocolate cupcakes last night, and whoa! TOO SWEET.) It will be a great help in keeping our expenses low for a while. My first priority once we have a paycheck rolling in, will be to build up a cushion, so we don't get so close to the bone again. A money cushion (so fun to bounce on!), and a primal food cushion.
Meat and butter for the freezer. Tuna, salmon, canned beef, canned tomatoes. Spices, coconut oil, nuts.
When you are not buying a new coat, or garbage disposal, it sucks, but you feel virtuous. When you are not buying tuna, you just feel sad.
Oh, and a sundries cushion, too. Shampoo, toothpaste, mouthwash, soap. Toilet paper!!!!! I'm thinking a six-month supply of these items would be lovely!
My next post will be a thankfulness list. But first I had to let some of the happy out.
I try to maintain as positive an attitude as I can. (Obviously, I have had my struggles with this the last two months.) But I'm NOT one of those zen-like creatures who can maintain happiness in the face of any circumstance. Having something good happen makes me happy! Happy, happy, happy!
There may be much blather in my journal for a bit. You will have to put up with it, just like you put up with the gloom. Hopefully, it will be easier to take!
Okay, I think I have reached my exclamation point limit. Must end this post.
Last edited by Sabine; 11-09-2012 at 04:15 AM. Reason: pronoun absence
Even in the hard times, so many good things have happened.
Thank you to Honey's co-workers, who gave him such excellent references.
Thank you to the government, for unemployment benefits and free school lunches.
Thank you for friends, who listened and gave me hugs. And rides, and two frozen chickens.
Thank you for e-friends, who also listen, hug, and encourage. Although, no chickens.
Thank you for passersby, who wave at you riding your bike, chat with you in line, and drive your food home for you.
Thank you for children who understand when they need to not ask for extras. And arrange their own rides to places. And still keep doing things to make you proud of them.
Thank you for self-control, not to cry in front of your children.
Thank you for having a strong marriage, so we could support each other during this time, and not tear each other down.
Thank you again for friends who understand that when you are complaining about your Honey and kids, that you still love them, and just need to blow off steam.
Thank you for God who laid his hand on my shoulder for comfort whenever I asked.
Thank you for finding five dollars on the street, and having no one claim it so we could keep it!
Thank you for interviews every week, so at least something was happening.
Thank you for Jenn thinking of plasma donation!
Thank you for the food pantry, especially the brussel sprouts! I LOVE brussel sprouts!
Thank you for having a bike to ride, and for strong legs to make it go. And for finally remembering to put the bell on it. Bike bells are fun!
Thank you for dogs that will cuddle with you all day long when you need it.
Thank you for the strength to make some right choices, even when they were hard. Feeling virtuous helps.
Thank you that it wasn't worse. I know it could have been, and I am grateful that my problems, though hard for me, were so mild.
Thank you for the library, for free books and movies. And internet.
Thank you for phone service back in our home. Even grudging thanks to our ISP, for getting it working again, though I am still going to ask for our bill to be pro-rated.
Thank you for the returning patience to even face calling our ISP again. I must have gotten over the last ordeal. So that means, thank you for a resilient spirit.
Thank you that no one had to see the doctor while we had no money. Please let that continue!
Thank you for the discovery that canned corned beef makes great hash.
Thank you for a journal to hash it all out in.
I'm so glad things are working out finally!! What an agonizing ordeal you have gone through!
Regarding the drug test - I took my drug test on my first day of work. As long as you pass, there's no problem. If you fail, bummer... see ya later...
In the Army, we would drug test about 150 people at a time and it took 3-4 weeks to get the results back. So, I would imagine that one person could have results completed in a day or two. I would think that most employers start employees immediately following the drug test. I've only had one or two jobs that required a drug test (3 if you count the Army). I didn't even need a drug test to get a job as a Civil Servant (Department of the Army Civilian employee - what I do now). I bet he starts Monday.
Congratulations again. I'm glad you can start to breathe easy again. I can't imagine the stress you have been through recently. All I can say is that I'm so thankful that it's over for you! And just in time for the holidays! I foresee a very happy holiday season for you now that this tremendous stressor has been lifted.
Happy Day, Sabine!!
Primal since March 5, 2012
SW: 221 | CW: 182 | LPW: 166 | UGW: 140 (80 lbs loss)
Thanks, Jenn. Yes, it is slowly sinking in and I am very happy. Feeling so much more relaxed and capable of dealing with things, even stuff that has nothing to do with jobs and money.
Sabine, I just wanted to say, your above gratitude post made me tear up. I don't post often, but I read your journal regularly. I am amazed by your spirit and resilience. I have prayed for you and your family through this difficult time. I am so happy that you have come out on the other side and are again able to be happy. I hope things continue to progress in great ways for you and the family.
Thank you, KimT, for your prayers, and for stopping in to say hi. The support from people on the forum has really helped me so much. I'm so glad I have it in my life, and all of you.
Sabine, I've read your journal over the last few days and coming to the end and reading your good news really put a smile on my face. I read your last couple of posts to my sweet hubby over coffee this morning and we talked about what a rough time our country is going thru now..and has been for awhile.
We sure hope life gets better for your family. There really is nothing like the pride a man feels in getting a job and being able to provide for his loved ones; big hug to you and yours at this most thankful time of the year.
Such Great News and a fabulous gratitude list. Smiling for you today.
I too am grateful for the kindness of others. I called a cousin of my husband to ask him if he had extra firewood. We were planning to pay him and he said "nonsense I'll hook you up." He is bringing two cords on Saturday. We just have to provide the labor.