Ok, I did not want to go out today at all. But I had an order waiting at the butcher, so I sort of had to. Walked a little over 3 miles, round trip. I'm beat. It was really not an enjoyable walk. I just don't have a lot of energy today and I feel sorta crabby.
The good news: I got 3 chickens and a pound of beef fat. And I stopped at the local candle/antique/knick-knack shop run by little old ladies and bought 3 soap balls for my bathroom. 65 cents each. They smell good.
Also: I stood in the butcher shop, face-to-face with a can of Mtn Dew, AND I DIDN'T BUY IT. They also had ice cream AND I DIDN'T BUY IT. Small victories. I'm going to have to walk to the CVS in a few days for toilet paper, though, and they have haagen dazs and fancy chocolate. That is going to require a lot of willpower, so I'm putting it off for now. I just keep reminding myself that, if I give in to my body's demand for sugar, it is just going to keep burning sugar instead of fat. And, afterward, the cravings will probably just continue. If I refuse to give in, it'll eventually have to switch over to fat-burning mode just to get fed, and the cravings should stop. So.. ugh. Trying not to give in. SO HARD.
I seriously don't even like candy bars, so it is insane how badly I want one right now.