Primal Challenge Journal (MamaGrok) page 67

[MamaGrok]

Found out my sister has her second bout with excess cell multiplication (one dermoid cyst and one pre-cancerous growth) in a year. She's 29. Is this what's in store for the youngest generations?

[Aila]

Hi MG,

So sorry to hear the news about your sister; and yes, I'm afraid that that is indeed what we might expect is the lot of upcoming generations, given nutritional and environmental degradation on a massive scale...

WOW, you are smokin'!!! Love these progress pics - you must be so proud!!

I totally empathize with your wonder at the randomness of various symptoms. The whole thing is rather a mystery, isn't it?

Way to go on the Christmas party! Sounds like you sailed right through!

[MamaGrok]

Thx Aila!

Week 8, Day 1!!! and all signs of LS missing, lol
BBT -
145+ Finally not gaining all day & dropping 2lb overnight, but not dropping at all!
53 days binge-free - Every day is a new record!!


Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein yes, 65
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising 45?
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunch yes, no lunch
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner yes, no lunch
- no snacking yes
- exposure to morning sun ate bkfst under the overcast sky w/ glasses instead of cx
- darkening the house at sunset sort of
- 100% primal diet no, xantham gum
- <50g carb per day maybe over
- no PUFA's other than fCLO yes
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fading extra 1.5 TB at bkfst. 1/2T at dinner

Mg (700mg) - I have such a hard time remembering this. I don't like the taste.
D (5000IU) - 8000IU
HCl - will try 1, one more time, tomorrow if no runs today
Digestive Enzymes - 2 with bkfst, 2 with dinner
OOO (4 drops) -
ACV (1T) -
Also: organ pills, broth, ferments: raw goat liver, broth
Dairy-free? no

B - 4 eggs, 5.5oz sausage, 2.5T coconut oil, 1oz liver

D - sausage, ground beef, two gluten-free homemade cookies, gobs of White Lion white chocolate chips, turkey soup, 1/2T CO

several cups of nothing

Results
- energy 7/10 in morning? DEAD in the afternoon
- bloating = instant after eating the chips & cookies
- skin bumpier on arms, smoother on trunk
- 9hrs sleep, could have used a lot more

[MamaGrok]

Here's the story of my day. GREAT attitude and energy in the morning ... but almost wired, which worried me just a bit. Children had unbelievable levels of disobedience, made me MAD. Then I worked it off and was in a great mood again. Then they did it again. They're never like this. NOT a great day for this! I blew up, yelled like crazy, and got a terrible headache. This happened so many times this past summer, and I was not happy to have this feeling back. Took several hours to lose the headache and spent the rest of the evening feeling like I was going to cry and throw up at the same time. Started eating the choc chips and had quite a few, then ate two cookies, which actually put a stop to it. Ate some CO in the odd hope that it would make some runs and get rid of the brick feeling in my belly. (I thin kit worked.)

SUCKY day.

But no binge, yay, but at the same time, I'm facing three days of parties ahead and feel like I'm going to blow it. Pray for me, send me strong vibes, whatever you do, do it!!!!!! No binge no binge no binge.... If I can makei t through these three days, I can do it past them no problem!

Worst feeling is, I just broke into the 8 week mark and feel like I've made so little progress.

On the bright side, my chest & face seem much less fatty than even a week ago. So yay for that.

[MamaGrok]

Week 8, Day 2
BBT -
147. ACK! But my clothes are still getting looser and looser...
54 days binge-free - Every day is a new record!


Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein yes, 65
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising 45?
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunch planning to have a small lunch today in hope of staving off bingeing tonight...
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner
- no snacking
- exposure to morning sun yes! 45 degrees barefoot and bare-eyed with a crisp blue sky.
- darkening the house at sunset
- 100% primal diet
- <50g carb per day
- no PUFA's other than fCLO
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fading extra 1 TB at bkfst. still runs yesterday and this morning

Mg (700mg) - I have such a hard time remembering this. I don't like the taste.
D (5000IU) -
HCl - will try 1, one more time, tomorrow if no runs today
Digestive Enzymes - 2 with bkfst,
OOO (4 drops) -
ACV (1T) -
Also: organ pills, broth, ferments:
Dairy-free?

B - 4 eggs, 5.5oz sausage, 2T coconut oil

D -

several cups of nothing

Results
- energy 6/10. Feel so much better mentally than last night.
- bloating = 4-5mo pg morning
- skin bumpier on arms, smoother on trunk
- <8hrs. Doing much better than I expected on it.

[MamaGrok]

Ahem.

Well.

Did I eat way more than I meant to? Did I break the timing rules at night for I think the first time? Did I eat WHEAT? Do I feel like crap? Did I set myself back many weeks?

Yes.

Did I eat more than others did/would?

I don't think so. But I was mighty close.

Two more days. Shouldn't be temptations; this was the last big one. Holding my breath.

[MamaGrok]

Aaaaaand a great day! had a great breakfast, not hungry for lunch (slept through it, in fact), wanted 'stuff' before dinner but ignored it and after dinner (where I stuffed in tons of roast beef ... hmm, strange, thinking of the tomatoes in it gives my stomach giddiness, GAH hate that), I didn't want anything.

Tomorrow should be the same, the Lord willing...

[MamaGrok]

Great successful breakfast, very successful lunch (had a little bit of dessert, but very little, mostly custard & cheesecake, some wheat ... amounted to about one total serving), less successful dinner (probably 2 total servings). Both Thxgiving & Christmas I had more success at lunch than dinner, probably b/c I was primed by dinner time from lunch!

But I didn't

• eat so much of the kids' stocking candy before Christmas that I had to buy more
• eat any of their stocking candy at all!
• eat any of dh's stocking candy
• have to unbutton my pants after lunch or dinner
• feel dead tired after either meal
• feel miserably huge (although I did have stomach pain and bloating, probably from the wheat?, but nothing like in the past)
• eat all that much of anything at either meal
• eat unreal amounts of Christmas cookies in the week before
• gain 5-7lbs (we'll see this time next week; I expect 2 at the most)
• continue bingeing until at least January 6, usually the 20th or so before I can rein it in. I'm going to go ahead and predict it over TOMORROW.

Big girl pants time. This is done now. None tomorrow. None any of the eleven other days of Christmas. None New Year's Eve. None New Year's Day. None while skiing in two weeks. None at my niece's birthday party.

None.

I'm not missing anything. Maybe I'll have it next year or the year after. By not eating it for a few more weeks, I'll miss nothing, and I'll have it again some day ... maybe. Or maybe I won't care.

[MamaGrok]

Running back the clock to ...Week 4, Day 1 Strangely, it almost feels better, b/c getting to week 8 with no signs of LS feels like a failure, but it doesn't at week 4, lol.
BBT -
Will not weigh till at least Wednesday.
60 days binge-free, by the skin of my teeth.


Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein yes, 65
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising 45?
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunch yes, no lunch
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner yes, no lunch
- no snacking yes
- exposure to morning sun yes! 42 degrees barefoot in my bath robe, overcast.
- darkening the house at sunset yes
- 100% primal diet no
- <50g carb per day yes
- no PUFA's other than fCLO probably some
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fading extra 1.5 TB at bkfst.

Mg (700mg) -
D (5000IU) -
HCl - will try 1, one more time, tomorrow if no runs today
Digestive Enzymes - 1 with bkfst, 2 with dinner
OOO (4 drops) -
ACV (1T) -
Also: organ pills, broth, ferments:
Dairy-free? no

B - 4 eggs, 5.5oz sausage, 2.5T coconut oil

D - dark choc covered dried cherries, pomegranates, PB cups (TJ's, no junk), minty stuff). scotty dogs, cheesecake (not even close to a binge). Sausage. Rasp. stilton.

several cups of peach black tea

Results
- energy 3/10.
- bloating = very
- skin...
- 9.5hrs, still way behind after getting just 5 the night before. 1hr nap before being disrupted by pain
- stomach cramped and expelled 5hrs after eating wheat-y desserts yesterday. That didn't happen after just sugar, or sugar + dairy, the other day.

[MamaGrok]

Ay! I was too tired all day, and was too tired to get up and get my dinner, so I just ate candy. Now, it was dark chocolate covered cherries & pomegranates, etc., and I ate very little, and no one in the world would consider it a binge, but I ate it. Then I ate (less than one piece, probably half a piece) of cheesecake (no graham). Then I ate breakfast sausage and I was done.

But I wish I could shut up the voices pronto.

I was SUPER sleepy and took a nap, and was woken by strong stomach (actually stomach, not gut) pains that lasted for 20 minutes till they finally flushed me out ... five hours after eating, like yesterday, but five hours after eating BREAKFAST, which was ssg, eggs, & CO! Then I got up and my pulse was around 110 for a very long time.

Interestingly, the candy made my head spin. The fatty sweets yesterday never did that, and I had more of them.

Then I ate the junk + ssg, and then some cranberry stilton (1-2oz) and have gradually felt worse andd worse over the last hour. My heart feels fluttery and constricted, my pulse is elevated (maybe 90? usual=60), i'm woozy, and I really feel like something bad is happening.

I wish I could do instant tests of everything in my body when this happens. I wish I could just know that medically I can't eat sugar/wheat/dairy/soybean oil/whatever. With a lab test and a diagnosis. It's so hard doing this!

Big girl pants! BIg girl pants!