Primal Challenge Journal (MamaGrok) page 49

[MamaGrok]

My name is MamaGrok and I have binge eating disorder.

How did I go a decade without realizing this?


Anyone know if it's possible to re-title a thread? When I made this, everyone was just calling them "Primal Challenge Journals."

[JKC]

Sorry to hear about the binge.

I think things like that are easy to not see when you are in the middle of them. Having realized this is a big step in itself, and I know God has a way through this for you. I will be praying that you can clearly hear His voice for the way to walk out of this.

I have had a few big things I have had to walk out of, and I know that it felt just about the worst when I realized the magnitude of my "issue" but it was actually the best thing, since it was a turning point of sorts. I couldn't rationalize it any more, no matter how much I wanted to.

Isn't it great that God is big enough to handle this, and to love us just as much in the middle of our blowouts as He does in the middle of our greatest triumphs?

[MamaGrok]

Wow, I posted a reply and it disappeared. It went something like this...

Yes, I'm honored finally to be offered a tiny sliver of the Cross to share.

Can it go away now? :lol:

[JKC]

LOL - tell me about it I can't tell you how often I have asked God just to make it easy!

[MamaGrok]

***ETA*** Here is the real beginning of my first attempt at the leptin reset - many restarts before I got to this point! http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum...tml#post487395***

I am going to try with everything that is in me and all that is in Heaven above to stick to this leptin protocol for 8 weeks. I, my dear husband, my children, need me to do this. And I'm going to use my Sweet BabyGrok as inspiration - at 20mo, her "diaper" rash is worse than ever. It never really goes away now. 100% gluten free, even if I mess up elsewhere. I'm going to get extended family on board, too - no sneaking her treats, and no offering them to me, b/c she's still nursing. She's also showing the smallest signs of the beginning of ECC, which is good that it's only beginning now (an improvement on her four older siblings), but I would love to stop it altogether.

I am not going to worry about the other aspects of primal living for now (exercise, brain, play...)

So here we go.

August 28, 2011

Week 1, Day 1 - 0 days binge-free
Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein 3 eggs in 1T CO, 4+ oz sausage patties @ 10:15-45
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising w/i 45myes
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunch 3hrs not hungry for lunch
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner 6hrsyes
- 3.5+ hrs between Dinner and bedtime>3
- no snacking yes
- darkening the house at sunsetyes
- exposure to morning suna bit
- 100% primal dietno - one small piece of ds's birthday cake I had made
- <50g carb per dayno - probably 100-150
- no PUFA's. Okay, just a few. fCLO.yes
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fadingyes. maybe helped? MAJOR fatigue for several early afternoon hours (but I've been sleep-deprived), then it lifted quickly 1hr after CO, around 4:30

Mg (700mg) - yes.
D (5000IU) - yes
HCl (7/day and working down - I think I maxed out 2 wks ago) - 3 + 2
OOO (_ drops) - no
ACV (1T) -no

[MamaGrok]

Week 1, Day 2 - 1 day binge-free
Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein 3 eggs in 1T CO, 4+ oz sausage patties @ 9:30
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising w/i 45mno. 1.5hr
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunchyes, 2:30
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner yes
- 3.5+ hrs between Dinner and bedtimeprobably only 2
- no snacking yes, unless the taste of cinnamon stick & cumin I accidentally had while making dinner counts
- darkening the house at sunsetyes
- exposure to morning sunyes! had breakfast on the deck, lovely! then ate lunch out and had a late afternoon light; I'm sure this is good for my circadian rhythm
- 100% primal dietyes, except apricots may have had a tiny bit of white sugar?
- <50g carb per dayprobably over b/c of apricot cheese & honey chevre I had a bit too much of. Dang. Well, I'm weaning off a weak of bingeing, so it's far better to taper than keep bingeing for wont of sugars. I had about 10 raisins after dinner and my head is spinning, what the heck?
- no PUFA's other than fCLO.yes
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fadinghad 1/2T at the end of lunch

Mg (700mg) - ~250 +
D (5000IU) - 10m full sun + 6000IU drops
HCl (7/day and working down - I think I maxed out 2 wks ago) - 3 + 2 + 2
OOO (_ drops) - 3
ACV (1T) - yes

B - 3 eggs, 1T CO, 4oz ssg
L - 2-3oz each of honey chevre & apricot stilton, summer sausage, broccoli & homemade sour cream dip, 1T co. Very bloated after.
D - carnitas, okra/tomatoes, salad w/ guacamole

[MamaGrok]

My 4yo is having accidents after being potty trained for two years. It seems to happen only when his diet is off. Freaking wheat & sugar.

[MamaGrok]

Week 1, Day 3 - 2 days binge-free
Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein 3 eggs in 1T CO, 4+ oz sausage patties @ 8:45
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising w/i 45mno. 45m
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunch5.5hrs @ 2pm
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner 6hrs @ 8pm
- 3.5+ hrs between Dinner and bedtimeno, 2hrs.
- no snacking yes
- darkening the house at sunsetyes
- exposure to morning sunyes
- 100% primal dietyes
- <50g carb per dayalmost certainly. Will probably start in on the orthostatic hypotension Wed or Th morning
- no PUFA's other than fCLO.yes
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fading1T after lunch

Mg (700mg) - 350 + 350
D (5000IU) - 5m + 6000IU
HCl (7/day and working down - I think I maxed out 2 wks ago) - 3 + 2 + 2
OOO (4 drops) - yes
ACV (1T) - yes
Also: organ pills, broth, ferments: 4, no, kraut @ L/D
Dairy-free? drop of yogurt in slaw

B - 3 eggs, 1T CO, ~4oz ssg
L - fajitas (peppers, onions, shrooms), bite of slaw, kraut, 3 blueberries (15m pp b.g. 86)
D - liver, onions, steak (I bribe the family - steak after you eat your liver), salad, guac, roasted carrots/broc/eggplant/radish greens, loads of butter & bacon grease

[MamaGrok]

Week 1, Day 4 - 3 days binge-free
Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein 3 eggs in 1T CO, 4+ oz sausage patties @ 7:45
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising w/i 45m[COLOR="darkred"]Yes!
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunch4hs - accidentally ate without counting hours
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner at least 6
- 3.5+ hrs between Dinner and bedtime probably <2.5
- no snacking yes
- darkening the house at sunsetyes
- exposure to morning sun10:30am
- 100% primal dietyes
- <50g carb per dayprobably - depends on whether the brussels sprouts were successful in their sabotage...
- no PUFA's other than fCLO.<T evoo
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fading

Mg (700mg) - 350 + 0
D (5000IU) - about 10m + 6000IU
HCl (7/day and working down - I think I maxed out 2 wks ago) - 3 + 2 + 2
OOO (4 drops) - 4
ACV (1T) - 1
Also: organ pills, broth, ferments: 1, , kraut w/ dinner, salt in AM
Dairy-free? butter only

B - 3 eggs, 1T CO, ~4oz ssg
L - summer sausage, some bkfst sausage, bites of steak, half carrot
D - brussels sprouts in gobs of butter, plus a pat or two plain, Polish sausage, sauerkraut, salad w/ evoo & red wine vinegar

Results
-Dizzy this AM (ketosis back?)
-backs of arms, bum very very soft
-bloating down some?
-BBT 96.0. after 10m of lying awake and then walking around bed, it was 97.0. 1hr later, 97.5

The sprouts were talking. I kept going back for more. I feel very full now and my head has that woozy post-sugar feeling. What?! B.S. 99 15m postprandial. 75 30m pp.. What is this woozy feeling?

VERY bloated after dinner. Is it from eating a brassica w/o it being 100% totally cooked?

[MamaGrok]

Week 1, Day 5 - 4 days binge-free
Leptin Resistance goals:
- Breakfast w/ 50gm of protein 3 eggs in 1T CO, 4+ oz polish sausage @ 8:30
- Breakfast w/i 30m of rising w/i 45mno - 35m.
- 5+ hrs between Breakfast and Lunchyes - no lunch
- 5+ hrs between Lunch and Dinner yes - no lunch
- 3.5+ hrs between Dinner and bedtimealmost 5!
- no snacking
- darkening the house at sunsetwas outside; do stadium lights count?
- exposure to morning sunyes
- 100% primal dietno, tater tots probably fried in veg. oil, although I really thought they tasted like butter! also, restaurant cole slaw (only veggie side dish!)
- <50g carb per daymaybe a little over with the tots
- no PUFA's other than fCLO.depends on the tot oil
- teaspoon of coconut oil if I start fadingtablespoon when I realized I slept through lunch, was still exhausted, and had two hours to go before dinner. Together with a boatload of water, I had no hunger from that point on.

Mg (700mg) - 350
D (5000IU) - some sun through overcast sky
HCl (7/day and working down - I think I maxed out 2 wks ago) - 3
OOO (4 drops) - 4
ACV (1T) - 1
Also: organ pills, broth, ferments:
Dairy-free? cheddar on burger

B - 3 eggs, 1T CO, 4oz ssg
L - slept through it
D - bacon cheddar burger w/ fried egg, tater tots, fries

Results
-took a while to get to sleep for the second night in row despite extreme sleepiness mid-afternoon. woke very unrefreshed. is this from the late dinner?
-still very bloated this morning. lower leg joints feel stiff. knuckles have needed a lot of cracking the last few days. urine smelled sweet. what the heck?
-BBT
-no bloating from tater tots. Weird. Just weird. I have no idea.
-my head & joints feel like they do when I'm very ill, but I have no other symptoms of illness, and temp is 96.8
-Felt dead tired & took two hour hard core nap at 12:30. Slept like a rock. 96.5 when I lay down, 98.0 when I got up. Also weird. Had to leave house to go to a football game and just kept thinking the phrase "I feel like sleeping and crying for no reason" over and over again. NOT LIKE ME. Stayed tired the rest of the day.