Primal Challenge Journal (MamaGrok) page 41

[MamaGrok]

My hubbie laughs at me as I can't even sit in my computer chair, I squat on it or walk on the stepper. Days when something is "off", dragging myself across the room to get chores done is an overwhelming effort.

1 day binge-free.

150.
Food
B - 3 eggs in CO

L - missed

D - 5 Guys burger (no bun, w/ shrooms & b. pepp & romaine), peanuts, bit of fries (haven't had fries in 8 months, really didn't like them :P ), slice of roast beef
Still hungry. LOTS of homemade beef jerky, bit of yogurt cream

S - yogurt cream, homemade ice cream (honey & cream & eggs, etc.) - couldn't make it for the kids without falling to the temptation. . Dizzzy after this. It really wasn't too much.

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
ice cream. sunburn (very mild)

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
walked all over Frontier Days at Stone Mountain, babe on back much of the time, no.

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
7.5hrs (tornadoes had me up till 2, slept till 9:30), lots of sun & fresh air, fun with family, talked traditional ways with some very interesting folks.

7 HCl, 5000mcg B12, 4000 IU D, 1svg Mg (Calm)

[MamaGrok]

Okay, I spent two days camping (s'mores didn't talk to me AT ALL, kept waiting for them to and I actually felt pushed away from potato chips, interiorly speaking) and loved the fresh air, then two days hiking to and from an inn that can only be reached by five miles in the Appalachian Mountains - with all my bunchkins and my beloved. LOVED it.

Of course, the inn provides your food and it was ideal except ... the pound cake for dessert. Homemade, real ingredients, just looked dreamy, couldn't resist, had one slice and haven't been able to stop thinking of how I'm going to get another fix ever since then over 24hrs ago. I keep trying, with dried fruit, herbal teas, meat, meat, and more meat, but just.keep.wanting.

Oh well, this, too, shall pass.

[Horsewoman]

Okay, I spent two days camping (s'mores didn't talk to me AT ALL, kept waiting for them to and I actually felt pushed away from potato chips, interiorly speaking) and loved the fresh air, then two days hiking to and from an inn that can only be reached by five miles in the Appalachian Mountains - with all my bunchkins and my beloved. LOVED it.

Of course, the inn provides your food and it was ideal except ... the pound cake for dessert. Homemade, real ingredients, just looked dreamy, couldn't resist, had one slice and haven't been able to stop thinking of how I'm going to get another fix ever since then over 24hrs ago. I keep trying, with dried fruit, herbal teas, meat, meat, and more meat, but just.keep.wanting.

Oh well, this, too, shall pass.

Sounds amazing.

And hey I am on day 4 of detox today, so we can be craving buddies lol

[MamaGrok]

Imma need some hugs/support/strength/toughlove here. I have really been floundering for over a month now, gained nearly ten pounds, and will. not. quit. Will NOT quit!!!!!!!

Back to LIVING tomorrow. I mean today, when I wake up, 8 hours from now. Or ten, or whatever it takes, lol.

[MamaGrok]

Trying again! It's not like there's another option, right?

Food
B - not hungry . took detox bath.

L - roast beef, sausage, bite of cheese, slice of pear, 2 C smoothie (bit of fruit, lots of yogurt, lots of raw egg)

D - Meat cake, lol. Baked meatloaf into cake pans and frosted it with mashed potatoes (the first taters we've had in 8 months), with cheese diamonds for decorations. Looked just like a carrot cake! Brussels sprouts w/ lots of butter.

The thought of sweets has been grossing me out today.

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
yes, yes

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
a bit, no, no

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
7hrs - still very very behind, not more than a smattering, no, a bit

6 HCl, 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, rounded tsp Mg (Calm)

[mummybeelee]

Hugs (((hugs))), support, strength and a big kick up the behind heading your way.

Take some deep breaths and remember why you are doing this. Remember those tastes of high energy, the feeling of health, vitality and well being. You deserve that. You deserve a fabulous healthy life. And in order to fulfil all that potential and healing, you need to put good healthy, living food into your body. Nourish yourself. Good food, good sleep, good movement and being kind to yourself.

Maybe reread some of the primal basics? http://www.marksdailyapple.com/forum/thread17722.html or another book or blog you find inspiring.

Here's a few extra hugs (((hugs)))

[MamaGrok]

Thank, you, MBL!! It really helps. hugs back to you.

If I had known back in January that despite doing 100% clean eating for months, that window into energy & cheeriness land would last only 3 days, I would have just wept the whole three days. Ah well, again, it's not like turning back is an option. It's just not. Press on!

Food
B - "egg drink" - 2 eggs, yogurt, a few strawberries

L - meat(loaf) cake, brussels sprouts

S - more of same ... feeling snacky and meatloaf + veg is way better than the alternatives!

D - soup made from meaty pork bones, big salad w/ some raisins (thinking of them is giving me that old stinking giddy feeling, grrr)

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
yes, yes

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
Carried a pig, two lambs, a goat, & two turkeys to my basement freezer!

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
8.5hrs - still very very behind, good noon sun waiting for meat delivery, played Boggle with my sweeties

6 HCl, 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, rounded tsp Mg (Calm)

[MamaGrok]

Food
B - 3 eggs in 1T CO

L - chicken sausages, 3 eggs, yogurt w/ dried pina

S - yogurt w/ raisins

D - lamb & goat BBQ w/ spoonful broth, greens.

S - yogurt binge. Raisins. Dang it. ATe like 3 cups of homemade 24hr fermented whole yogurt. I can even binge on foods that USED to have sugars in them! :headwall:

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
yea, technically

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
a bit of housework, no, raced my lazy sons who were running bases SLOWLY claiming to be going top speed. I beat them all, lol. Whoopee, I can beat a 9 year old boy!

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
9.5hrs, late afternoon sun, racing, no

9 HCl, 5000mcg B12, 2 rounded tsp Mg (Calm)

Feeling foolish.

[MamaGrok]

Oh, I just remembered an image I had last night. Strange, I've been having lots of images pop into my head lately - just an image, no words - that solve problems I've been working on. Anyway, this one was a slingshot. I suddenly thought, my progress forward was inching - no, millimetering - along, and I've been pulled back so I can be shot forward.

Ever the optimist I am, lol. So here's to hope! What else to make of the first weight gain I've had since going primal? I was down to 143.5 and now am back up to around 150. IDK b/c I refuse to weigh until I'm steady again.

[MamaGrok]

Lots of cravings today. But I made it through, TBTG.