Primal Challenge Journal (MamaGrok) page 40

[MamaGrok]

I'm half tempted to start a new journal just for a fresh start. But this one has too many important details for me to forget about, and I thin k(I hope) is at least somewhat inspiring for those on their journey, since I've certainly been blessed with a lot of progress in the last year.

But I'm oh, so weary. So, so weary of fighting the sugar demon.

I think I need to go watch Return of the King again.

Where there's life, there's hope.

Well, I still have hope. I'm just weary. ...


Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more unto the breach!

[MamaGrok]

Hi! I'm a 35 year old, homeschooling mother of five who is 145-150lb and about to embark on a fresh start, now. I just finished a dried fruit binge and am going to try to beat my binge-free goal. Currently it's 3 weeks.

I'm setting a goal for the next 30 days of having no concentrated fruit sources - NONE - and no nuts or unfermented dairy. Cheese every few days, yogurt every now and then (whole and long-fermented), butter, yes. Whole, seasonal fruit, yes. I'm doing GAPS and am going to stay with that - no potatoes for now. Let's see, that's

GAPS minus any concentrated fruit sources. Yes, I can do that.




Food
B - IF. only briefly hungry, then fine.

L - rabbit stew, bit o' mashed cauliflower, TONS of dried fruit.

D - not really anything. Bite o'stew. Painfully full. I feel like my ribs are going to break open on the sides from trying to hold everything in my gut.

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
Nerp.

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
no, no, no

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
8hrs, no, no, no

no HCl, 1 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, lots and lots and lots of Mg

My HCl came in today, thanks be to God! So now I can have my HCl, B12, Mg, & D and keep my food clean and see if we can make some headway with this gut and fatigue thing.

[mummybeelee]

Yes it is inspiring and helpful!! You have made amazing progress!

I am sure this fresh start will see more amazing progress in healing and reaching optimum health over the coming months as well

[MamaGrok]

I was going to make this post about how wonderful and meditative my Good Friday was (and it was), and how ready I was to move on (and I was), but then I gobbled down a bunch of dried fruit again today. Not as much, but gah. Feeling like crap again, even after 11hrs sleep last night (boy did I need to catch up from a few weeks of deprivation).

That's okay, my official new start isn't set to begin until after Easter Sunday, anyway.

I was thrilled, though, with how easy it is to fast whn you aren't relying on carbs. Good Fridays in the past have been horrible, barely able to abstain from snacks, let alone meals. Yesterday, though, I just decided not to eat breakfast or lunch, and it was super easy. Love primal!

[MamaGrok]

GAPS minus any concentrated fruit sources. Yes, I can do that.


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Food
B - IF

L - 3 eggs, probably 2-3C of dried fruit & cashews

D -

Avoid Poisons & Trauma

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
no, no, no

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
almost 11hrs but need a nap.

no HCl, 1 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, lots and lots and lots of Mg

My HCl came in today, thanks be to God! So now I can have my HCl, B12, Mg, & D and keep my food clean and see if we can make some headway with this gut and fatigue thing.

[MamaGrok]

12 hours binge-free.

was 147 yesterday
Food
B - 3 eggs in 1C CO

L - rabbit stew, garlicky lamb picked off leg bone, green beans in lard. forgot HCl until after lunch, big bloat.

S - I could have sworn I put this in earlier? Easter cake (=navy beans, butter, CO, cashews, dates, carrots). All gone. The end.

D - pork belly (w/ a sweet sauce ), peas, grits, salad, wee bitof goat cheese. Forgot my HCl again.

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
no - dinner out. Yes.

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
housework + nice brisk hike, no, yes up hill on the trail full speed!

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
7.5hrs, 25m, no, yes good convo w/ dh.

6 HCl, 1 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, Mg

[MamaGrok]

1 day binge-free.

150. Good grief. I am stubborn; I am NOT updating my siggie with negative progress yet! GIve it another week...
Food
B - 3 eggs in CO

L - roast beef, green beans in lard (delicious!)

D - hamburger patty

S - starved hours later: Hebrew National "Jumbo" dog and a few roasted peanutsAvoid Poisons & Trauma
probably not int he ballpark food!, yes

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
housework + walking to ballgame, cast iron, no

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
sleep interrupted by sick babe, meant to but got to field after dark, no, went to an NFP refresher course, so YES!

9 HCl, 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, 3 rounded tsp Mg (Calm)

I forgot to mention that about a week or so ago, I saw my face fluff up again. YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DANGER WILL RoBINSON DANgER!!!!

[MamaGrok]

Great evening - we were all going to a Tech game at Turner Field, but I realized I needed to run an important errand for a friend, so decided to do that and meet the family later on in the ballgame. I got there at nearly 10pm, and was thinking I should just wait till they were out. But I realized I just wante dto get out of the car and move, even if it meant meeting them as they walked out of the park. THIS IS CRAZY STUFF! I mean, yesterday, or even this morning, or most any time in the past four years, I would have sat in the car even if it meant waiting in the dark for an hour. I just *wanted* to get up, even if the trip was pointless.

It really illustrates the truth, once again, of what Taubes says - now, it may not be just carbs; it may be a whole host of carb-gut interaction, but the absolute truth is, when the switch is on, I want to move and can't stand to sit; when it's off, I want to sit and can't stand to move. It has not a thing to do with laziness and everything to do with fatigue.

I'm just giddy (and waitingfor the other shoe to drop) that the energy is starting to come back again. I have these ggreat hopes that the HCl and/or B12 mean it's here to stay (at least for a while) this time. Fingers crossed ...

[MamaGrok]

2 days binge-free.

150.
Food
B - 4 eggs in CO

L - smoked sausage, smoothie (strawberry, banana, CO, egg, yogurt)

S - some smoked sausage, smoothie. Too much, not quite a binge. Who votes I reset my timer?

D - pernil. yum yum yum yum yum. Brussels sprouts cooked in lard.

Avoid Poisons & Trauma
probably some crap in the sausages, yes

Move Slowly, Lift Heavy Things, Sprint
housework yes!, cast iron yes!, no

Sleep, Sun, Play, and Use Your Brain
9hrs, tried but no, no, no

10 HCl, 5000mcg B12, 6000 IU D, 3 rounded tsp Mg (Calm)

[mummybeelee]

It really illustrates the truth, once again, of what Taubes says - now, it may not be just carbs; it may be a whole host of carb-gut interaction, but the absolute truth is, when the switch is on, I want to move and can't stand to sit; when it's off, I want to sit and can't stand to move. It has not a thing to do with laziness and everything to do with fatigue.

I'm just giddy (and waitingfor the other shoe to drop) that the energy is starting to come back again. I have these ggreat hopes that the HCl and/or B12 mean it's here to stay (at least for a while) this time. Fingers crossed ...

Yes!! I really truly feel this as well. I don't know what the switch is or even if it is the same for everyone but I know when my diet is good, my sleep is good, my stress is low etc then I just can't sit still. My hubbie laughs at me as I can't even sit in my computer chair, I squat on it or walk on the stepper. Days when something is "off", dragging myself across the room to get chores done is an overwhelming effort. Laziness doesn't come into it!
I am finding I have that energy more often than not these days. I am crossing everything for you that you find you are in the same place