B: sausage, 3 eggs in bacon grease
L: sausage, 1/2 carrot, bites of apple, 6-7 tiny dried apricot halves, 1.5oz melted cheese. Feel like continuing eating, but saying no.
I still am dubious that anything emotional caused my compulsive eating, or causes any particular instance of it. Certainly once it is triggered, an emotional setback can make it worse. But it doesn't seem to trigger it in the first place. But it is possible that the dissociation I subconsciously learned in my childhood to cope with detachment may have depleted me of the neurotransmitters needed to create the endorphins that make us feel good, and that this lack of feeling good leads me to seek desperately the carbs that will mimic the effects of the endorphins.
Yeah, that's the geek in me.
I have no bad childhood eating habits. I didn't even have cravings till after four years of low-fat crap eating and tons of antibiotics destroying my gut flora balance. No problem adjusting, no stifled anger, no dysfunctional upbringing. I have a joyful marriage, no money troubles, wonderful children.