What a bummer I understand what you're saying though, and you don't want to put yourself in a situation that will only make things worse. I'll admit though, I'm nervous to do this alone! But seriously, don't feel bad because you don't owe me anything and you need to do what's best for you! With that being said, I'm still going to do this. I need to. I need to change my ways and get back on track. I can see and feel my health slipping. I'm feeling super tired, depressed, and uncomfortable in my own skin. I've definitely gained weight and I feel disgusting and bloated and gross. I've been thinking a lot about what I want these 30 days to be for me, and this is what I've come up with:
Like a Boss Manifesto
-absolutely no nuts. none.
-keep doing PBF/BodyRock, yoga, and walking/jogging
-I'll also be incorporating some supplements (tryptophan and/or St. Johns Wort most likely)
-lose a few pounds (I'm going to try not to get hung up on numbers, so I'm not going to specify an amount. I just want to lose what I've gained and FEEL better)
-improve body comp
-get rid of SIBO symptoms again
-be able to do 3 pull-ups in a row!
That last one is big. That's the real main goal here, but I know it's easier said than done. I just need to focus on my health, and realize that binging/purging is not conducive to health AT ALL.
So, I feel like this is a bit sloppy, but I've been doing homework all day and I can't really form coherent thoughts right now.
I just want to be healthy again! I want to radiate health and wellness and be a shining example of Paleo success!
Like. a. boss.
OH! And when the 30 days is over, my reward will be a purchase from Lululemon! Huzzah! No food rewards here!!!!
Your input and suggestions are welcome and encouraged