@Pam Thank you so much for the pick me up! I'm working hard to get through all of this with a positive attitude- heck even made several sets of plans yesterday and saw many friends. My parents are not usually a viable option but they may have to be an option... May talk to my dad about moving in with him soon... Just won't be overly prepared if mom decides she wants to move back in too (long story that I won't explain but I'm sure you can put 2 and 2 together). Doing my best to apply for at least 1 suitable job a day. Today it was just a temp 2 month position but it's better than nothing. I'll keep looking a bit more today as I do some laundry/pick up a book I've been neglecting. As far as my parents and diet? It's terrible- my dad's a diabetic sugar addict and mom "can't control" her eating. I've tried hard with both just to have no success.
@Judg You make a good point about stress. It's not even so much stress as it is confusion really. I'm not getting anywhere. Heck, even my weight has been a giant plateau this month. Really not helping the situation really. I'll likely put in maybe a 1 lb loss when I weighin on the first sunday of this month... kinda shitty eh? I try to get out with friends when I can- my family isn't always a reliable resource of encouragement and support. I get that my situation isn't the worst and that people have unnecessarily endured much worse but it's the not knowing what to do next that is killing me. I don't know if I can' afford to stay at the place I'm at and I'm not sure what kind of budget I have to find my own place. It'd be easier to gage if I had some form of income to bounce off of.
@Siobhan I'm doing my best to take regular walks and get out. Best I can do at this point especially with the weather getting colder. But I'm getting there. Protein and fat are of course my staples that keep me going