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    Harplady's Primal Journey

    Dunno if anyone will read this, but here it is!
    I started my food journey when I was in my teens. My family had moved from San Diego to the middle of nowhere (wasola, MO), back to the land, to raise all our own food. It was a major culture shock for the little hippy girl that I was, but the food was awesome, until I started getting migraines. I went vegetarian, and the migraines went away. Then I tried eating various things, and it was the pork every time. Years later I understood that it was the nitrates/nitrites in the pork, not the actual meat itself. But this began a years long journey of vegetarianism, only interrupted after each of 4 pregnancies by an incessant craving for beef. I'd eat beef until I no longer liked the taste of it, and then back to my grains, beans, and tofu. After my 4th child I went vegan for 7 years, then had a sudden desire to eat salmon (I'd never liked fish), which I ate regularly for awhile. I'm allergic to all dairy products, and struggled with low blood sugar (and sugar addiction) in my 20s.

    There was a part of me that believed a vegetarian/vegan diet was better for the planet, but in my 30s I started gaining weight and it seemed like no matter what I did, I kept gaining it. There was a macrobiotic phase, more attempts at being vegan, and finally 2 stints as a raw vegan, which allowed me to lose weight, but I was spacey and couldn't maintain that lifestyle. The first lasted 6 months and ended when I cracked a tooth, all of my teeth became sensitive to cold, and I took that as a sign I needed warm foods, so it was back to miso soups and the like. That's when the sensitivity to wheat became obvious, along with leaky gut syndrome. The second raw run lasted about the same time, and ended when I broke out in shingles from too many nuts (high in arginine). Ever since then I can't eat more than a handful of nuts once in awhile. That winter I was constantly sick with lung infections. Looking back on it all, it's kind of humorous. Around that same time I read "The Yoga of Eating", by Charles Eisenstein, a great little book.

    A few years ago I started really listening to my body, and asking how do I feel after meals. I also started reading about Paleo and I started eating meat again, and stopped getting sick. I've been growing my own produce for years, and for the last couple of years I've been getting most of my meat from local people as well. I especially do well with grass fed beef.

    A few months ago I started reminiscing about some of my old vegan meals, and the next thing you know I was eating ezekial bread daily, rice and stir fries, etc. I love that food, but my guts hurt, and very quickly gained back 20#, and in august got another lung infection. It took weeks to heal, partly because I was in denial about my food choices. I got back on track by making a big batch of beef broth from marrow, rib, and knuckle bones, and drinking that stock with my meat & veggie meals.

    Now I'm back to feeling great! I realized that supporting local purveyors of REAL whole food is probably the best thing I can do for the planet, as well as the local economy, and of course, we all know that it just tastes SO much better too. I eat lots of eggs, various meats, and lots of veggies. Occasional nuts, fruit, and once in awhile I allow a cheat. I started at 195 this time around, and maybe I'll weigh in next week.
    Terri the Harp Player
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    Welcome! It's encouraging to read about reformed vegans/vegetarians. My sister is vegan and recovering from an eating disorder so I worry a lot about her getting enough of the right foods (she claims to eat enough protein, but in order to actually do that she'd have to eat a large serving of beans at every meal, which she definitely doesn't!). I suppose there's still hope for her yet!
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    Starting weight (this was a couple weeks ago) 195
    B:46.5 W: 44 H: 45

    I'm a musician, so I often sleep in and just eat 2 meals a day, brunch and dinner.
    Today's food:
    B: sweet potato, red onion, chorizo hash with 2 eggs. English breakfast tea with coconut milk and stevia
    D: (took my daughter and grandson to PF Changs) Wok Seared beef with broccoli added.

    Exercise: 30 minutes bellydancing!

    I feel great today!
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    Thanks nameless!
    I also had eating disorders in my youth, and actually have thought about my obsessive compulsive food issues with vegetarian/vegan/raw and wondered in retrospect if it wasn't just another manifestation of the same disorders. Anyway, I feel SO MUCH better eating meat and fat, and leaving out grains, especially wheat. For years I worked hard to make sure I was getting protein, I did all the combining, ate tofu & tempe, tried seitan which made me sick (gluten). I always had gas, reflux, and IBS. My hair & nails grew slow, I had bad allergies. When I changed my diet, all that went away, like a miracle. When I make the mistake of trying to go back, all those symptoms return. I'm not perfect, and I don't need to be. I am learning from my mistakes.
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    I started the day by reading some other people's journals, which has been very inspiring! One of the reasons I started my journal here is for accountability. I have a tendency to go into denial,and to minimize risks when it comes to food, so, for myself, and for anyone who might read this, I have a confession to make: yesterday when I had dinner at PF Changes my daughter ordered the calamari, and at first I wasn't going to eat any, but then I had a few, and then a few more, etc. Of course, calamari itself would be fine, but the coating is not, plus it's deep fried in some cheap oil, and the dipping sauce was a little sweet. Of course, it's easy to tell myself that this is a small cheat, (after all, I didn't eat any rice), but I'm here for accountability, and I can't believe that I omitted that appetizer from my journal!

    I got hungry last night after my last post (we were up late) and also had a few slices of turkey lunchmeat (a good brand), rolled up around a little daiya non dairy cheese. It isn't made from soy, but not something I need to eat regularly either.

    Woke with a mild headache and some IBS symptoms. When will I learn?

    But, today is a new day and I've started off good. 2 eggs, chorizo (a good brand), and broccoli. Black tea with coconut milk and stevia.
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    I can relate with the calamari. "Oh, but the protein justifies the wheat," I tell myself. That's my mantra with anything battered or fried, the ends sort of justify the means. Either it's meat so it's ok or it's a vegetable so it's ok. Tossing aside the bread or the bun or the texas toast or biscuit are not much of a problem these days, but that breading is so hard to resist. Sometimes I wonder if I'm ever going to learn...

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    i'm reading! it's great to hear your story and your roots. did your family raise any of its own meat? i bet it felt wonderful when you finally realized it was nitrates/nitrites causing problems for you and not the meat itself. glad you found paleo/primal. also - <whisper>i'm a belly dancer too</whisper> it's so great one of the best ways to exercise for sure... i might have to turn up some music later...

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    This sunday is my family's annual New Years day brunch, which is usually me cooking big piles of bacon, cranberry walnut scones, and eggs to order. All 4 of my kids, 3 grandkids, my boyfriend and (hopefully) his 2 kids, (both of our kids are grown), and sometimes a few extras come and we hang out laughing, eating, and open a few presents (it's my substitute for xmas). So I've reworked the menu for this week:
    Spiral smoked ham from whole foods (nitrate, preservative, and hormone free)
    Deviled eggs
    asparagus and broccoli
    raw veggie plate: cukes, red bell peppers, cherry tomatoes
    rolls, banana bread, cheese plate (for those who want it)
    I'm also thinking of making some mildly sweet grain free scone or cookie or something, just in case I feel the need...

    I think this buffet will satisfy everyone, and keep me on track too.

    Today I ran around getting all the groceries I'll need for sunday, and while at whole foods I had to eat. I started getting shaky and spaced, which has been a problem for me for years. Once my body needs fuel like that, it's time to eat. I grabbed a couple chicken legs, some kale, and squash off the food bar, and the small cheat of the day, a bottle of peach oolalong ice tea (does have a little sugar in it).

    Dinner was pasta night: Ground sirloin, pasta sauce, broccoli and my 'noodles' were yellow squash sliced into ribbons and sautéed in the beef juices until tender. Yum!

    I didn't get any real exercise today, and for that I'm a little disappointed.
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    Happy New Year!
    It's been a few days since I posted here, but things have been going good. Last thurs night was my grandson's 10th birthday party, and I knew the food was going to be a bunch of junk, so I made some guac to grok on, and brought some of those crinkle cut carrot slices to use as chips. That's a favorite snack I've been eating for a couple of years, and it satisfies the need for crunchy, creamy, and yummy.

    I ate well all weekend, actually! Lots of eggs, meat, veggies for breakfasts, roasted chicken fri night, steak sat night, and sunday was my annual New Year's brunch with my family here. I was up early to fix the food, so I actually ate breakfast first (otherwise I would have been worthless). I had a bacon and egg scramble with Broccoli. Everyone loved the spread of food, and since my daughter was bringing banana bread I made orange cranberry scones (from elenaspantry.com, made with almond flour), leaving out the chocolate chips, just in case I really wanted something 'special'. I had a few, and they were tasty! Everyone liked them, actually! I also had deviled eggs, ham, some raw veggies, and asparagus.

    One problem that I have is that my hunger comes on suddenly, and if I don't eat right away I get shaky and dumb. I've been reading the Leptin reset stuff, and have upped my breakfast considerably. Today it was 3 eggs, bacon, leftover ham, onions, and swiss chard, all scrambled together. It was awesome! I thought, "well, this oughta hold me for awhile", but a few hours later I needed more! There was some cajun egg salad left from yesterday, so I filled a couple romaine leaves with it, and that held me for a couple more hours. Then I was out and about, and suddenly my guts are screaming like the plant on little shop of horrors, "FEED ME!". I stopped at Chipotle and got a bowl with beef, extra fajita veggies, pico, guac, and lettuce (no rice, beans, cheese, or crema), and although I'm trying not to eat after 7, I just polished off the last 2 scones, and they were delicious.

    I also finally weighed in, 195.5. That's a loss of 4 lbs in the last 2 weeks, so I feel good about that! It's a start.
    Terri the Harp Player
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    Hi Terri the Harp Lady!

    Nice to "meet" you! I can so relate to much of your story - I, too, had forays into veganism several times during my 40 years as a vegetarian, and even into raw veganism twice, always I think in search of what would make me feel physically and ethically sound. I have to say that although I have a long way to go weight-wise, I feel so much better eating Primal/Paleo than ever before.

    What a great little book The Yoga of Eating looks like! I can't wait to read it, thanks for the recommendation!

    I'm wondering if a spoonful of added fat with your meals might be helpful to you in terms of warding off the "FEED ME!" ravenous hunger? It looks like you are eating fat (guac, egg salad, and perhaps in the meat if it's fatty?) but I'm thinking that maybe you could try a spoonful of coconut butter as well? That really works for me.

    Glad you're here!
    50 yo single mom
    5'3"
    Primal since 12/1/2010. Now Whole30ing until I feel WHOLE again, my goals are no longer scale-related.

    Aila's Primal Journey

    "If I cling to circumstances, I could claim to be not responsible. Only she who says she did not choose is the loser in the end." Adrienne Rich

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