Day's not even over and already more snags.
B: Thai Style Eggs
L: …McDonald's Caesar salad
D: will probably be the salmon from last night.
Why does it feel like whenever you make an honest strong effort to do something good, there's something or someone that comes along to put a road block there? I haven't been able to have one full day of primal/paleo eating without messing up.
People don't seem to realize that it's not just about me being picky or weight-watching. I have IBS and while I don't have a lot of flares (thank God) I am aware of how food makes me feel whether it's terrible pain, constipation or lethargy and depression. Every Tues and Thurs I accompany my aunt and grandmother to the physical therapist. My grandma's 90 with a knee that bothers her. But my aunt is overweight and I think if she had just stayed active at home, she wouldn't be so tight with back and leg problems.
After we left the office we headed home but not before stopping at a fast food joint. I had just finished eating a Larabar, thinking that "Yes! I can make it home without fainting!" But she decides to stop. They ask what I want, I say nothing. I say I don't like fast food. My aunt simply replies "I don't either, but I have to eat". …I sort of have a feeling she was making an excuse (and at times my mind screams "sabotage".) I got the salad (which is like $5!) and I was only able to get through half of it until I was like "omg this is gross". Even a salad from a fast food place is a last resort.
I think I'm going to make a habit out of posting things I've learned each day (otherwise I might lose it.)
-I have to make some concrete goals for myself. I have to. Otherwise I'll get slack and just fall clean off the wagon. I'll start with trying to finish two bottles worth of water each day. One of my biggest temptations is flavored beverages (right now, Kool-Aid, which is frustrating because I went a very long time without it.) I may have to gradually ween myself off of it like I did with Sprite (only that time I had juice to fall back on.)
-I never know if my breakfast choices are filling. I seem to be having trouble telling the differences between hunger and cravings. Usually if I'm jonesing for something in particular, its a craving. Either I need to put in an extra egg or try another recipe. I don't know.
-Paleo/Primal is a PROACTIVE lifestyle. Dx You cannot be lazy. And I don't mean just with being active. If you don't plan things right and follow through and do them it's going to be tough and you're almost guaranteed to fail. I've been trying to not be too harsh on myself but at the same time I wonder when I am too lenient. That being said, I think ONLY Larabars are not going to cut it when I am away from home, especially for an extended time. Homemade salads or veggie finger food might be in order. Heck maybe even a full on lunchbox.
-Unhealthy things I used to like, I can't stomach as much now. Today for example: I used to like the salads from McDonald's alright. But today it was not appealing and I couldn't even finish. Worst part is I ate a good bit of it and am still hungry. Don't know if I'm becoming more sensitive or if it's my mind playing games, making me think I hate it because I know it's not good.
With hope and some luck, setting specific goals for myself will help to develop healthy habits. I have a very long way to go and sometimes it's hard to not just totally give up.
1st Start: 8.25.12
SW: 151 CW: 147 GW: -150