tinawalker: Yeah. My problem is my self control is on an all time low. Although I may not always remember, I have been able to do some things I thought I'd never be able to. So if I just try and put my mind to it and have more discipline and consideration for my health, maybe I can get there.
This primal/paleo way of eating made sense to me because the things I wanted most were probably bad for me. It's amazing how I've relapsed into eating things I haven't eaten in years. It's because I know I'm having to give up what I used to eat. I should stop whining and crying about what I can't have. What I can't have is bad for me anyway, so why am I so miserable? It's not like I have to live off things I don't like. I like fruit, I like vegetables, I like meat. So...yeah. I don't know where this forlorn attitude of mine has come from. I gotta refocus.
Ultimately I hope tomorrow is the first day of a new beginning. And I also hope that if I am successful my success can be inspiration for my family.