Primal Journal (RMS) page 56

[RMS123]

Back from my travels. Ugh, I'm tired! Play golf. My first time - ever. I don't actually think I've even ever played mini-golf. My team included the CEO. Good think that I have a lot more confidence since I've lost weight - didn't phase me to play with him. And yes, I'm rather terrible at golf. I should not quit my day job anytime soon.

I had bought some dark chocolate in individual squares. I'm proud of myself, though. It took me about 20 minutes to eat each square. That's the way it should be!!!

[demuralist]

good to see you back.

[athomeontherange]

Glad your back and you were successful on your trip..golf aside lol

For the record..I sucked @ golf too

[RMS123]

Today is the first day sans scale. It is tucked away on the top shelf of the closet. I can go get it if I think I really need, but luckily I'm too lazy for that for the most part. I'm a bit scared.

But, I also know that I've had some of my absolute best weight loss with the silly box. It's part because I don't play games like "I wonder if that piece of chocolate will show up on the scale", and then if it doesn't, I eat too much chocolate. Without the scale, I'm like: better stay clean because who knows what it does to the scale.

Or, on the other hand, on a special occasion (my birthday, Easter, our anniversary), I simply enjoy myself without worrying what it will do to the box.

I've had some dark chocolate 3 days in a row. Not a lot. But, last night, my stomach was cramping so bad. Today, it's rumbly. I know that it means the dairy was too much. What a bummer.

I'm working toward a healthier relationship with food. Still struggle to stop when I'm full. It's like I think I can't get more food if I'm hungry, even though I have a house full of food! Will keep working on the mental side of things this month.

[Pebbles67]

Without the scale, I'm like: better stay clean because who knows what it does to the scale.

Or, on the other hand, on a special occasion (my birthday, Easter, our anniversary), I simply enjoy myself without worrying what it will do to the box.

Yes to both of those things. I am also not torturing myself with the should have...thoughts.

[RMS123]

Yesterday was less than spectacular on the food front. It was my usual - I did great (and felt great) all through the day. Then, at the end, I let myself go. It's not like I was hungry - so why keep eating? In part, it's because my stomach hurts (still I'm messed up from the chocolate...if this doesn't remind me that I really am dairy intolerant, I don't know what will!] I'm wondering if I need an eating window that says "kitchen is closed to you now" and call it good. I don't think I can handle a 5 hour window like Karin, but maybe an 8 or 9 hour window that makes me STOP (unless I'm truly hungry). Will ponder this today.

Hope everyone has a spectacular day!

[Pebbles67]

I have a real problem with Sundays. I get this "Damn, tomorrow is Monday, better eat." attitude. Yesterday, I had no excuse as I am on vacation. I got a little too drunk and lost my food inhibitions.

[athomeontherange]

HaPpY BiRtHdAy!!! Hope it is a great one! A little chocolate at the least is OK!

[Pebbles67]

Happy Birthday Ruth!

[demuralist]

I'm wondering if I need an eating window that says "kitchen is closed to you now" and call it good. I don't think I can handle a 5 hour window like Karin, but maybe an 8 or 9 hour window that makes me STOP (unless I'm truly hungry). Will ponder this today.

For me, I find that if I only allow myself what I have on my plate, or have planned, and no seconds that I do better. My window is that I will not allow myself to eat after dinner which I like to finish by about 6:30 to allow 3 hours before going to bed. I find I don't actually feel 'full' for at least an hour after I finish (I am obviously missing the 'that is enough signal my body must send) but I will feel 'full' after that for hours and that makes it difficult to get comfy enough to sleep.

I am really in a window similar to Karin's without actually planning it. I tend to just do HWC with coffee most mornings. Then lunch is usually around 1 and I finish eating by about 6:30. It is not working for the scale. What I find does work is simplicity. Put a protein source, 2 veggies, and some salad on the plate, simply prepared with not much on it (ie. sauces to a minimum) and I lose. Start getting fancy and I stall. There is a lesson there for me I think.

p.s. happy belated birthday!