Love the signature.
Flush the jelly.
Love the signature.
Flush the jelly.
Thanks all for the support and motivation, esp. the post by Northern Light. Very good and helpful. I do look at it as a personal battle and extreme failure on my part when I can't stick with the master plan. It is good to be motivated, but part of my self-destruction is being so hard on myself when things don't work out. tfarny said that successful athletes are blind to their mistakes. I think it is more like they don't dwell on mistakes to the point of self-destruction. An NFL receiver drops a pass in the end zone. He immediately feels disappointment, regret, shame, anger, etc., but he doesn't drop the rest of the passes because he failed. He uses the dropped pass as motivation to push on and get that touchdown. My problem is I drop passes on purpose out of disgust. Reading other's posts and writing my own is helping me think about these things and getting my mind straight. I need to get healthy and bounce back. Maybe the biggest thing I can change to do that is to take a chil pill and forget about yesterday and focus on today.
Thanks again everyone!!
Focus your anger and disgust outward, not inward. And soon enough you will start feeling the rewards of being primal. They did not take long for me -- more energy, less hunger (skipping meals because I do not even think about food for hours at a time), better sleep, more fun -- and I get to enjoy food that I have deprived myself of for years!
It is not a promotion, but it is a clear sign that you are freeing yourself from decades of brainwashing and regaining control over your health. I swear I am a happier person today than I was a week ago! I am a true carb lover, historically, but now that I know what they have been doing to me (and who told me to eat them in the first place), I am happy to put them in my past in exchange for bacon and cream!
If you are new to the PB - please ignore ALL of this stuff, until you've read the book, or at least http://www.marksdailyapple.com/primal-blueprint-101/ and this (personal fave): http://www.archevore.com/get-started/
Hey, we could be twins ... or BFFS ... or something like that. We could start a self-destructive support group.
My deal is, I know exactly -- for the most part -- why I fall off the wagon. I can even see it coming. And yet, I seem to be powerless to stop it. And I don't mean that as a cop out. "Oh, poor privileged American white woman can't stop eating too much." But the cravings and emotional hunger seem to take on a life of their own. And there's no journaling or enough walks around the block that can stop it.
Life is so much better now that I've discovered I'm imperfect. Funny thing is, I realized all of the people around me are too, so I'm not competing with them to be perfect either.
Makes it much easier to accept mistakes (my own and those of others) and move on without beating myself up.
Give yourself the option to have some freedom. Put yourself in CONTROL. Let yourself eat that bowl of ice cream, or get a small fry in the drive thru. Whatever it is, just eat it (a small portion, hopefully, and not vomit-inducing portions), be happy that you've satisfied the craving, then get back on track.
I am recording my food intake daily on FitDay. Do you know that I've had to audacity to LIE to MYSELF about what I've eaten so that I can feel good about staying at a certain number of carbs? All I did was screw myself over for a week, while I pigged out on homemade applesauce. It might sound silly, but yeah, homemade applesauce (6 servings in a day!). I stopped recording my food that week because I didn't want to be honest with myself about it. And everything stalled. All my other foods were still the way they should be, and really, the applesauce wasn't going to hurt me.
You know what? I looked myself in the mirror, realized that I was starting down the same trend I've done before whenever I tried to change my eating, and snapped out of it. I try to stay between 50-80 carbs per day. But you know what? If I feel like crap and I want a bowl of that yummy coconut chocolate So Delicious ice cream (40g carbs for 8oz!), or I want to eat the ENTIRE mango (33g carbs!) AND an apple (20 more!) one day, then you know what, I'm going to ask myself if I REALLY want it, and if I do, then I'm going to eat it. Eating 100 (or even 120!) grams carbs that day isn't going to kill me. Yeah, I'll be off track on my 50-80 goal, but the next day you can be damned sure that I'm going to stick to it.
It's okay to have an off day. Set your goal, stick to it as much as you can, and give yourself the OPTION of a 20% non-primal or over-indulgent snack or meal, say twice a week. Work it down to one if you want. And don't beat yourself up about it! Just accept it and move on. I might sprint a little harder the next day, or lift a bit more when I'm lifting heavy things (myself!), but I have come to realise that if you make yourself feel helpless, you're going to fail. And it'll be your own little secret, and then you'll start asking why it's happening, and find an excuse somewhere.
Bottom line is: YOU are in control. Don't make yourself helpless and set yourself up for failure. If you do that, you WILL fail. You do NOT have to be perfect.
Love yourself, smile, and be happy when you look in the mirror each day.