Thank you all for your replies and I plan to watch that video when I'm at home. I think it might just be part of my personality.... very Type-A, engineer, etc. You know the type and that is me.
Okay so maybe it's not a disease but with that said, I do get anxiety eating out (drinking helps of course, but this weekend no one drinks except me so I won't). Sometimes during a meal out with family, especially if it is running long, I really have a difficult time relaxing enough to enjoy it. First, sometimes we go to this place where they don't have salads and don't offer a veggie side dish - it is so unhealthy it is insane! Also, it is difficult for me to sit there and watch people I love eating all that crap in massive amounts and everything like that. It really gets my mind spinning into a negative place and definitely stressed my relationships with people and food. (They don't try to force foods on me anymore which is good. I think I finally cried once when they did that and so they stopped.) Does anyone else get thoughts like that or is it just me?
The other day I was reading Mark's travel menu (in the book or online, I can't remember) and saw what he ate at restaurants and it did make me feel better and bring me some relief to see that he eats a salad at Friday's where they cook it in soybean oil and use low-quality ingredients and everything.
I've pretty much been obsessed with health (mostly nutrition with less focus on exercise) for the past 8 years so it's not like this is a fleeting thing in my world. Maybe I should focus more on exercise now that I think about it. When I exercise it does tend to help my mental fog become more clear and I do relax better. I think I'll try that. Go for a long walk with some sprints and such while I'm away.
End rant thank you cyber space