"Be careful what you pretend to be because you are what you pretend to be." Kurt Vonnegut
"I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by." Douglas Adams
"Moderation sucks." Suse
"Wine is a vegetable." Meaty
"Every decision you make, from what you eat to what you do with your time tonight, turns you into who you are tomorrow and the day after that." Cmdr Chris Hadfield
Our body is our subconscious mind, and anybody who thinks that their conscious mind is running the show is seriously mistaken. In fact the conscious mind just may be the most narcissistic entity in the universe, it thinks it's running the show. It's not.
~ Nora Gegaudas
"Everything can be taken from a man but one thing... -- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way." ~Vicktor Frankl
And that's why I'm here eating HFLC Primal/Paleo.
i guess this entire weekend is a crapshoot as far as food goes and again i really don't care. i have taken note however that i'm getting twingey little pains over my right knee and left foot like i've stepped wrong
inflammation, i don't care
i was messing with plants yesterday and i have pink lemonade blueberries planted in a large planter, the dirt in it has stayed wet wet andi was concerned about the roots rotting. til i remembered that blueberries have shallow roots so keeping wet in the sun is a good thing. it hasn't grown at all. it just sprouted some leaves and THOSE got a little bigger but i'm like 'wtf hybrid plant, why are you so unnatural'
i'm grumpy and sore and tired. i slept all afternoon and night, but i want to go back to bed and nail a board over the window. yeah. bed THEN board over window.
i'm amazing today
be'd a long day, was at grammas for 5 hours then i decided to do some shopping because dammit i wanted to be frivolous. cheap and frivolous. so 3 bitty rose plants, giant ground staples for the dog fence & toilet cleaner cause dammit i am hardcore
some asshole animal ate my ripe strawberries. i wouldn't be half as insulted if it also hadn't TAKEN. A BITE. OF AN UNRIPE ONE. AND SPIT. IT. BACK. OUT!
back burns like the dickens at the half mark and tail end of a hydro session so that sucks
but i realized this morning that i don't feel like i deserve niceness in life and i want to work on that
i guess step one is a very clean toilet
...not that it wasn't clean before, but it's now scrubbed top to bottom
also.. i need to be accountable with my workouts, no matter what form they take.. so... gaaaaah... i guess i'll log them or something stupid like that.....
i did nothing today. i was awake 22 hours, took a muscle relaxer cause i was uncomfy and then proceeded to sleep and dream and sleep through 2 alarms and numerous calls and texts
another freakin dream about my ex. i'm tired of those scary dreams.
my strawberries appear to be unmolested, as are the other plants
i feel like i have an all over cold, so i don't know if it's from a grains fueled weekend or me finally taking a vitamin today after 2 weeks
i did some t-tapp and egoscue back works last night. back is burning most un-nicely now. storm is also on the way so that doesn't help
and i'm sleepy
Last edited by bloodorchid; 04-30-2012 at 07:14 PM.
last month i bought a rose bush, and as i could not figure where i wanted to put it i set it in a giant pot as a temporary home (no, i don't know how i'm going to move it now, or even get it out of the pot without accidently killing it) the other day i bought a trio of miniature roses. upon reading that mini roses doesn't necessarily mean the plant will be mini (lol says the plant seller) i'm now like 'shit.. now what'
i.....'ll figure something out? i guess?
the hibiscus have begun to settle in, there were no yellow leaves today. now to nag them into blooming for me. i'll be that mother-in-law who makes annoying and not so subtle hints about grandchildren every visit
i still haven't checked on the grape vine, i guess i can do that while scouting rose sites. like put the 3 minis around that area? i dunno.. i dunno. dammit, i'm a genius not a problem solver!
and i found the source of the pretty outside smell, there's some honeysuckle going wild way out back. like 'exploded all over everything' wild. i wonder if i can root a cutting and stick the pot in my car and just carry it everywhere smelling everything up. i imagine that would be less offensive than spraying febreze on everything/one. it would be 'eccentric' if i were a millionaire. since i'm not, it would just be called 'insane'
and having skimmed and scanned my way through a 'local' forum full of my 'friends and neighbors' all i can think is 'dear god they look dumb'
ohhhh my goddddd.. i've seen 'negroes', 'colored people', 'to' instead of 2 & a gay teen wearing eyeliner was 'sick and freaky'
i'm reading this thing like 12 year olds watch horror movies; hunched forward, nails bit & eyes huge
Last edited by bloodorchid; 05-01-2012 at 02:37 AM.