i suppose i'm out of my funk. i was upbeatish earlier, i'm mellow now, i crammed a bunch of raw veggies down my throat, i've had less than one diet dr pepper, i potted and repotted some plants and hopefully didn't kill my cacti and aloe, i didn't eat any potato pancakes when my grandma called to give them (and i like them, s'true), i worked out some and logged it and was baffled that shoulder presses are worth so many more points than the rest
and my back still burns, but i'm defunked. mostly. there is still a small urge to cry now.