tiny hands played every nerve in my back and right leg like master violinists last night and this morning. 'okay... melatonin'. that eventually let me doze for less than an hour
i woke up with back singing and leg twitching, and i always get pissed when it happens. i jerk and flop like a fish on land, violently jerk to another position, twitch, kick, jerk, twitch
so i got up and took a muscle relaxer and resigned myself to sleeping all day. i had to remind myself i survived a muscle relaxer/pain pill combo so relaxer/melatonin would be nothing
so i didn't sleep all day, 6 hours i think. i'm not groggy, i'm not too much of a noodle. so i guess it's all good. i hurt like a mofo tho
i had a plate full of chicken and sweet potato. i wanted more, so
i had a bowl full of fruit and yogurt. i want more, so
i'll probly brush my teeth. or more chicken. or both. my stomach is full, but i kinda want to lick salt off a plate or something. or something. i don't know.
i read the nerdfitness blog on walking to mordor, then i link followed to 'how to get back on track when your life sucks'. like oliver twist looking up with big eyes, pleez suh, may i have some motivation?
I just read that 'how to get back on track when your life sucks'...
I need to dig around over in NerdFitness more!
I like it there.
Monday i get to find out more about surgeries stuffs I hope...
I want them to drill holes and poke things and fix shit so I can move on... NOW!
How quickly reluctance becomes impatience.
Our body is our subconscious mind, and anybody who thinks that their conscious mind is running the show is seriously mistaken. In fact the conscious mind just may be the most narcissistic entity in the universe, it thinks it's running the show. It's not.
~ Nora Gegaudas
"Everything can be taken from a man but one thing... -- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way." ~Vicktor Frankl
And that's why I'm here eating HFLC Primal/Paleo.
it does indeed
but you're gonna get that stupid surgery over and done with and then it'll be relaxation mode
today i worked out. i feel good about that.
does a dvd count towards my trip to mordor? if so, 3 miles. shut up, i need the structure. there was some mild upper body work included with a band, so i'm uncomfortable but it's live withable
and i put too much pepper on my carrots. i mean who does that? really?
yeah my back is winding up.. shiitake
visited gramma, talked with cousins, tried not to eyeroll at my aunt, later i met my sister's boyfriend and he's adorable
gramma gave me a necklace, so coo
i need this sweet image
my mind is getting blown right now
alsew breaking bad blew my mind. walt lost his damn mind.
i had caffeine, i flailed around like a spaz for 40 minutes. my mind.. feels.. unsettled. and i want it settled on something.
my primal journal:
*zeroes in on YOU..... and settles*
a sore back last night made me grumpy. not sleeping then having to wake up made me grumpy. still being sore made me grumpy.
i may have even grumped at my baby
'doooon't tell me what to doooooooo'
but a hydro + a bowl of beef/spinach/sketti sauce/rice + a glass of milk + cute dogs made me feel better
which makes me not shower my love with grumpiness
and tonight..... squats
prepare yourself, diabolical dickbag back muscle creator