You never know what someone else might see in you and if he/she is only noticing the packaging then they really aren't where you are at anyways - ya know? Self confidence is really attractive. For me - there's nothing hotter than seeing a guy who's a good Dad - not that I'm interested in shopping around at all - I just find that to be a most attractive strength. Happiness is another irresistable thing - everyone wants some of it! I think a large part of your dissatisfaction is coming from the inner growth you are experiencing. You are becoming a new person from the inside out and each class you attend, each person you meet, every garden you touch is working on you. I'm thinking that one day you will wake up and realize that you no longer can fit into your origional pot - like a plant about to bloom and ready to move on. Please plan for your next spot in life as I think it will be coming for you sooner than later.