I've had times without emotion. It's kinda scary. How do you take a sabbatical without being emotionless?
I'll pop over and check out what you're doing, Pebbles. Thanks for the heads up I need to get back to reading about the Stoics. I really like their philosophy and when I manage to apply it, it really helps with my tendency to worry.
Mud Flinger- actually, my writing has helped. I realized that many of my stories are, in a very broad sense, chaos vs structure. My heroines always choose chaos. Apparently I need more magic/wilderness/weather/wildness in my life
Official weigh-in: 223#
D- cottage cheese, burger w/bacon grease, kale, red wine
B- tea/cream, coffee/cream/CO/D, supps
I think my problem right now is that work is stressing me out (bored, frustrated, introvert forced to interact with people and pretend to be extroverted) and I am handling that right now by poisoning myself with food and alcohol. Because that's a super grown-up response. When I started the PB, I realized that I have used food in the past to help manifest mental and emotional pain into physical pain. I never cut myself. I never had to. Just had to indulge in some healthy pasta. When I crave wheat, the shit has hit the fan and I'm in trouble. I'm craving wheat.
I'm trying to get some time off next week. Our scheduling thingie sucks monkey balls if you try to schedule anything less than a month or two out, so I'm still waiting to hear back with whether I got it or not. Because I totally know two months in advance when I will need some mental time. I need to start walking again after work, and making sure to get sun on the weekends. This one is already scheduled to be all gardening. It should be fun
I worry. It runs in the family. And I always see the cloud instead of the silver lining. I need some time to veg mentally and emotionally- not physically- to help me regain my equilibrium so I can see whether or not the problem is genuine or I'm just "pileing on" as we say in the family.