Thank you, you guys! It's good to know that I've got people in my corner- even if they are strictly over the Internet. I've been feeling really disconnected, which isn't helping anything.
Gay Panda: I've come to the conclusion that I write romances. It's tragic. However, the one that needs to be edited is a sci-fi/environmental romance, and my exercise in writing 75,000 words is a historical romance (that one was at least deliberate). I am very much a fan of fantasy/scifi. Then there are the ones that I'm good at but can never be admitted to in polite company. It would be nice if my talents went toward, say, NYT best-seller type novels, but you do what you can, right? And I hear you about some of them being aweful! But I guess it's all practice?
600 words on the historical romance (thank you for the push) and an unknown number on an old romance I dug up since I was wide awake at 1 am.
Ottercat: Wouldn't it be easier if we could just point at something and say "that's why I'm the way I am"? I am finding the more I learn the more I know what to do to manage myself. It is good to hear that it keeps getting better, though.
Wonder: I don't like editing because I'm not used to it. In school I got used to my papers and such just coming out the right way. Of course, my teachers usually had a lower bar than the one I set for myself
I have had a lot of good ideas in the throes of depression- but you're right- the execution isn't always great. I remember one story I was so proud of- then I sent it to my sister and she sent it back with that message. I got pissed and buried it. When I dug it out again- gee- she was right. Hate it when that happens. I'm thinking I need to take some writing classes or something. I'm good, but I could be great if I worked at it You are right about absorbing, too. I'm working on that, too.
I'm setting aside weight goals for the time being. Winter is a bad time, and my mind is not in a good place. That means that even if I try to lose weight, it won't happen. However, if I can focus on daily writing, and getting out my books on depression, and taking my supps religiously (10,000 IU of D this morning, but no time for my AM dose of the rest- I hate waking up before the sun) then maybe by spring I will be ready to lose weight again.