I simply have to do what I can to eliminate stress and savor the easy days for now as well as maximize the things I can control like diet until a proper balance to my life returns. I know I am out of balance but I am trying to compensate in other areas. If I can find 30 minutes a day a few days a week maybe that will provide even more balance. What I really need is some "playtime" and that is what is scarce to nonexistent.
Thanks for the feedback and concern.