so work today was a long meeting and it was decided to have lunch brought in. Pizza. My boss did order me a big salad though. It had a couple of strips of chicken on it. It was kind of sad, bottled ranch dressing and all. But the garlic breadstick was beautiful, all buttery and warm. I ate it.
What I learned....carbs make me want more carbs. Suddenly the pizza smelled really good (I do not care for non-homemade pizza, my dad's family is Italian). I didn't eat any, but when I finally got home I was looking for carbs. Unfortunately DD was making muffins, so I had a tablespoon of raw dough. Then stopped myself and ate some leftover pork from last night (coconut, yum!). So I have now had all my calories, fat, and protein for the day, and I am over on the carbs but under on the fiber. And I feel crummy.
Tomorrow is another day. But tonight, I am chugging ACV, and tea.
I had to admit to Matt that I had gained 4.6 pounds in a week. I would really like to get back to where I was when I left and then get on with it.
I need to get back to the mentality I had when I was a vegetarian, but as a meat eater. This is the way I eat, it is not a Diet, it is my diet. It is the way I live, a new paradigm. I don't "cheat" because this is not a Diet. That is all there is to it. This is about taking care of myself, keeping myself healthy, and hopefully I will lose weight in the process.
so here is the other thing I am struggling with. I HATE doing lifting, I just cannot force myself to remember to do the EM. I am hoping that as I get back into the swing of waking up at 5:30 and don't feel so tired that maybe I will force myself to do it long enough to make it a habit. I am making excuses I know. I just despise it so much. I have good intentions in the morning. Well...maybe I do them first thing tomorrow, before I feel tired. I will try that. So tomorrow morning, EM