Primal Journal-deMuralist page 213

[demuralist]

ewww, on all counts!

It is tough because I am a city girl at heart, but the last 2 places we have lived we have had PITA neighbors. Before this we lived in a university town in which the students were very privileged, and the 4 that lived next to us, had the exact opposite schedule as we did-and we had very young kids. Police were called in at least 2 to 3 times a week because of noise ordinance and under age drinking issues. Finally, they got evicted, and we got to watch! Police just take everything (and I mean everything-they even tow the cars out of the garage) out of the house and put it on the sidewalk. We lived on a pretty well traveled street, by the time they got home from class, more than half of their stuff had walked away. What goes around really does come around, and sometimes you get to watch and enjoy it!

[demuralist]

Well, things are going very well with my "new" plan. I have eliminated hunger and cravings as well as binges (ok so it has only been a few days). I am sleeping at least 7 hours a night, last night bringing my average down.

So what I did yesterday that really helped, I made my chocolate shake when I was cleaning up after lunch and put it in the fridge. So if I got an urge for something sweet, I would go in and take a few sips. Then I had the rest of it (way more than half of it was left) as dessert with dinner. So here is where the sleep issue comes in. The Double Dark Mate has caffeine in it. Didn't think of it till I was trying to sleep. Today I will make it with the just the Red Velvet tea since it is caffeine free.

The beauty of this is that I can take the protein powder, tea, a cup, and my extra stick blender when I travel (all of my travel is family stuff, not business). So I have a back-up snack while on vacation this year at the beach when everyone else is eating all of the chocolate dipped everything that my DD does (she melts the chocolate and just starts dipping until she runs out of chocolate-she starts with dried apricots and usually ends up with clumps of cereal).

I have been leaning more toward the low carb, not paying huge attention to fat or protein, but still getting my 10 veggies. So here is how the stats shook out yesterday...

Calories 2144
Fat 134g =58%
Carbs 61g Fiber 36g Net Carbs 25 =11%
Protein 165g =31%

This felt very good, I got in 8662 steps, even without having my treadmill! Since my sleep has improved I have been averaging well over 7,000 steps a day. This is almost double what I was getting when I was getting crappy sleep.

Am I losing fat? Who the hell knows, I have divorced the scale and it feels great to be rid of it. I have a doctors appointment in March, and will get weighed then. If I care to check it, I can access my records online.

the one sour note for yesterday, as you may have guessed, DS and I did not start the exercises. Have to start them this week. Hopefully today is the day.

[RMS123]

If this were on facebook, I'd hit "like" several times. This is how I want to be...

I LOVE this: "I have divorced the scale." The scale and I have an on/off relationship. I think I need to divorce it and be done!

[athomeontherange]

I agree.. I think I am going to steal that quote for my signature line..LOL

[Pebbles67]

I wish I could, but I took over weighing every day from Chris.

[demuralist]

Karin, you don't need to give me credit for that, I am ok if you claim it as your own.

Oh Paula, I am sorry, cause I definitely know how you feel!

Ruth, I am not sure how I got here, but boy am I glad I did. I think it is because I am 100% confident that what I am doing is the healthiest way of eating for me right now. And numbers on the scale might try to convince me otherwise, so I don't want to know what they have to say.

The truth is, that when I was in high school I weighed anywhere from 150 to 160 (5'6" then, I grew an inch since then) and my sister who was at least an inch shorter weighed between 120 and 130, and we shared clothes, yes even pants. Now why didn't I ever realize that what that means is that the number on the scale means nothing! Because of that number I have spent all these years tied to the scale. And she did not. Now I weigh 260 and she might weigh 150 on a bad day. We wore the same size clothes. Yet I thought I was fat and spent my life dieting, and she was comfy in her skin and lived her life. I gained 100 pounds in the last 35 years and she might have gained 20. The scale has done me no favors, I want nothing from it, and I owe it nothing. I can now decide how I feel by how I really feel.

Hope I can keep it up!

[demuralist]

I am starting to see a pattern that I can use to my advantage. If I make something sweet when I am not hungry, or at a time when I am very unlikely to just go ahead and eat it, and then have it available for when I do want something quick, it prevents mindless shoveling in during the witching hours. For a while there I was making a pumpkin custard thingy and keeping it ready. Lately I am just making a protein shake. When I am cleaning up from lunch, I brew up 2 tea bags of caffeine free, chocolate flavored tea. Once cooled I add a scoop of chocolate whey (I am using Jay Robb-pricey, but worth it), add a T of HWC whirl it up in a 24oz cup then nearly fill with water. I put it in the fridge, then I take a sip here or there whenever I find myself roaming around the pantry looking to get into trouble. Then I have what ever is left, usually about half or slightly more, as dessert.

Yesterdays Stats...

Calories 1,932
Carbs 58g (12%)- Fiber 35g = NET 23g
Fat 105g (50%)
Protein 179g (38%)

It feels very good.

[RMS123]

It sounds good.

If I'll do something similar with veggies and maybe some meat (like leftover chicken from a roasted chicken), it helps me as well. Things are bad when I find myself suddenly famished with no easy options!

[athomeontherange]

it sounds good.

Things are bad when i find myself suddenly famished with no easy options!

this!!

[demuralist]

I always have veggies ready to snack on, but for some reason the witching hour calls for sweet or chocolate or crunchy, I NEVER reach for the veggies. The shake satisfies 2 of the 3 and is filling to boot. If I am roaming the shelves (I am finding nuts or jerky), for some reason, I don't seem to get satisfied. Probably for several reasons...I am standing, shoveling without thinking, and not really filling the nutrient need. Although all of those also apply to the sip of the shake, well, except I thought about it and went shake instead of pantry.