My N=1 experiment. 1. Cut way back on dairy and nightshades and -obviously- grains 2. take a flavorless shot of calories in the form of coconut oil middle of a 2 hour flavorless time span 3. take a 1 hour nap/listen to meditation
Yesterday...not a successful day, While I managed the EVCO shot, and nap, my WTH attitude coupled with company and easily available junky food means that I did likely actually eat enough extra calories for the pound that I gained to be fat and not water weight. Today is a new day.
I will continue reprinting these goals until they are ingrained in my head! I believe that following my n=1 tasks will make these much more likely.
LC (net), moderate protein, high fat
No added sugars or flour
No restrictions, goals or limits on veggies
Eat only when physically hungry (tummy growling)
Got the 6 hours, obviously did not help.
STATS: as best I can tell from what I remember and how I could figure out how to track it, most of it was homemade, not primal, not sugar free, not grain free, but totally yummy.
Result:262.2 up 2.2
So after I ate all that I ate in the course of about 5 hours of nibbling, I felt physically like crap. Mentally I still was in a "WTH I deserve to let go every once in a while no one else is worried about it and they are all skinny, why should I worry" attitude. But physically my stomach was full, and it doesn't feel good like that, especially when I am trying to fall asleep. But no guilt or anything like that. Then this morning, even before I saw the scale, I just kept trying to figure out why I would do that to my self when it feels so crappy. Unfortunately, I didn't come up with an answer. The only thing that kept coming back to is that quote about 'if you always do what you have always done you will always get what you always got'. I know that dieting doesn't work, and yet I keep coming back to it. Why, FEAR that's why. I am afraid if I stop I will be even bigger. SH*T.
I checked the Paul McKenna book (I Can Make You Thin) from the library. When I listened to his meditation every afternoon, I was losing weight. I stopped listening to it because iTunes deleted it from my library for some reason when I was updating one of my very old iPods. I loaned the book and cd to someone, cannot remember who, so I checked it out of the library so I can reload it into iTunes, and make myself a copy (I will only loan out copies from now on). Hoping it will help me mentally again.
Thankfulness: I am thankful for my persistence and eternal hope and belief that I will figure this out, I will in the very near future be at my ideal weight.