Thanks, I know there is no point in dwelling on it. Nothing is going to change it. And you are right I am at least grateful that I have discovered a healthy way to lose the fat and not have to feel like I am starving or fighting off binge urges all day long every day. There isn't anything I really miss (well, being able to literally just eat junk-homemade cake with buttercream frosting- would be easier, although I suspect I would tire of it). I do feel confident I will do it this time and this is the last time I will have to lose weight, and that my attention will, hopefully reasonably soon, be turned to maintenance. I can't say I have ever felt that before.