Good on you, get back on that pony
Ok, so I lied, my story (unfortunately) has nothing to do with sex, but (unfortunately again) has too much to do with candy.
Hello, my (screen) name is Jennachica, and I have relapsed into periods of BED again. I have been struggling with the binging since I was about 12 years old, started getting out of control when I was 25, and now at 29 years old has actually put me in the hospital twice this year.
I took a few months off of work, went to Mexico, did a phenomenal month on Whole30, came back home, and have relapsed...badly, for a month now. Put on all the weight I had lost, but worse of all, am feeling terrible and am truly disappointed in myself.
However, I am NOT going to cry about it anymore. No, I am going to testify here that I am doing another Whole30 challenge and STOPPING this before it takes over and ruins my life again. Primal living has been the single greatest thing that has happened to me, and I will not fall off the wagon and let it run over me again.
I don't really care if anyone reads this, although it would be nice to have support! But I need an outlet to post and somewhat hold myself somewhat accountable to my actions. I plan on writing each and every day. I've tried journaling in the past, didn't work bc I don't really hold myself accountable, to well, myself, so I am going to give this a try! Day One tomorrow
Good on you, get back on that pony
It's what I love about the MDA crowd, plenty of support and ideas around.
There is a huge positive to take from the Mexico/home cycle and that is you understand the feedback loop. Your body is telling you what works for it and what doesn't so set yourself some targets and see how you react to meeting those targets and keep the loop positive.
I am new here, but feel free to PM me for support or venting. Stay positive and give yourself time to adjust.
Thanks guys , this is what I love about the MDA forums, so much positivity and support. I need to get my priorities straight, and health needs to be #1, because without your health you truly have nothing!
Day One of Whole30....again.....go!
Hi Jennachica! Good luck this time. You can do it!
(However, have you considered that doing an intense 30 might trigger a relapse when you are done with it? What if you focused on what you could live with for the rest of your life?)
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You are completely right Hedonist. For some reason every time I set a time frame or attach numbers to it I freak out and binge. I'm going to focus more on the Whole30 principles but not call it anything , just LIVING life primal, striving for the 100% so I know at least I'll get to 80% that way. Ugh, wait, I just used numbers....haha
Jennachica - Keep you head held high. You can do it! If you want feel free to send me a message for any support you need.
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Sounds like you might need "baby" steps rather than jumping in 100%. Maybe start with something this week - make it a habit, then next week or a week later add another thing. Obviously, we all are different and to be successful we have to find out how we roll. I started my journey slowly I guess. Always looking for something new cuz what I was doing wasn't working or wasn't solving the whole problem. I would do "this" and then read more and then do "this." Kept it interesting and not so overwhelming.
I wish you the best. Most of us fall off every now and again. Don't beat yourself when you do; Just enjoy the ride (and the ice cream if that's what it takes that day) and take it a day at a time!