Thanks Meaty. I'm gonna post my "shredded" photos at some point, probably around my birthday (mid-June). I'm around 120 lbs right now. Seriously, not eating enough (1200-1500 calories) is probably what got me to lose weight. I don't recommend it because being hungry makes me pretty fucking cranky, but if I turn into a middle-aged fatty someday, well, it's an option.
What I want most is to get to a point where I can stop worrying about my weight and brain all the time. I want to just BE fit and mentally healthy. But I am still fairly fucked up.