Ew coconut. Since I have nothing with which to make coconut butter, nor do I have any kind of nut butter, I'm in the clear. It's easier to bypass cravings when I don't have them in the house, and it's easier and easier to walk by them in the store too. Bacon cravings, however, should never be ignored. Boyfriend and I have been very good at keeping up with our bacon intake (1-2 packs a week). =P
My energy levels are irregular. I feel much more energized on the weekends probably for a few reasons: I'm physically moving around quite a bit more, I'm doing things that I'm more interested in, and there's no pressure for me to "keep busy" or finish anything in any amount of time. I am wondering if getting a regular exercise regimen started (more than the 5 minutes I spend a few times a week right now) will help with this, but I'm not sure how to really do anything more than I do now. I do 5 minutes at a time because that's all I can handle. I like the idea of starting to run, but I know it would be a struggle to go 20 minutes at a leisurely pace. And it's always been that way for me, I guess I'm a bit discouraged feeling like eating this way should make this a bit easier, but maybe it's just a problem with motivation and not pushing through the initial discomfort.
Weekend goals review: Got more Tyrosine, helped my mom with some computer stuff (for $$), helped my godfather with some computer stuff (for $$), bagged shoes for donation & brought to my parents house, put away my bags of fabric scraps that have been in the living room for a couple of weeks, went to BJ's for some more meat & trash bags, and taking it easy came in the form of some pleasant and casual gaming and a nice long chat with my godfather. The only thing I didn't do was hang fliers around town. The idea of going into the shops & hanging up my ads made my anxiety flare up so much that I did not even look at the stores when I drove by them when I was out doing other things. I'm disappointed in myself for getting worked up over this. I can handle meeting strangers and working on their computers, but not hanging a damn flier?!
Budget thoughts: I got a nice chunk of change from my mom and godfather for helping with computer stuff this weekend. While I'd like to put it straight to a loan, I also had an unexpected expense this weekend and I'm considering keeping the $$ in my account to cover that and have a bit of pocket change for my vacation next month. I think at the end of the month, I'll split my savings (from regular work income) to put some in my savings account, and the rest straight into a loan. I might have to buy more probiotic soon, and it's pricey, but worth it, and I have the money to spare for once. Still not sure about my tech services payments though...
Food: I eat irregularly on the weekends. Since my mom bought me the protein powder I was interested in, I used that as a mid-afternoon pick-me-up and it was enough to get me through till dinner without feeling cranky. I'm going to make sure I have lunch everyday this week to see if that helps with my energy levels. I also need to make sure I have more meat available for breakfast so I have enough fuel in the morning. It's all about making sure I put food in the fridge to defrost at the right times! I'm not worried about using the protein powder as a meal replacement (often) because I like the taste, but there's something a little bitter about the stevia in it that doesn't make me want to chug it or even have it all that often. Maybe if my protein intake is low, it'll be an occasional dessert =)
Sugar-free attempts: Had some fat-free yogurt (11g of sugar) and a couple little squares of Dove Dark Chocolate at my godfather's house. It probably didn't take me over 20g of sugar for the day, and otherwise I haven't cheated or anything. I don't consider those "cheats", I just enjoyed them. Though since the Whole 30, I haven't been able to eat chocolate slowly like I used to. Not sure if that's a bad thing.
Symptoms: My focus is on energy this week, seeing what I can do to keep my energy levels up and ensure I'm getting enough food for energy. Last night I had a really terrible stomach ache in the lower abdominal area. It was a deep pain, almost like I could feel pressure behind my rectum. Weird. I would put the pain at 7/10 with 10 being in a ball, crying, unable to move. I was in a ball, near tears, and could move, but it hurt a fucking lot. It went away after a while and today it only hurts if I strain when I go to the bathroom...so it's probably gas/constipation. I think I was a bit light on veggies this weekend and heavy on the rice one night. Pain is scary regardless of the source. Allergy symptoms are unchanged, though they were worse at my godfather's (he said there's probably mold and a lot of yeast from baking there). There are some allergy testing facilities near my work and home so I think I'll be able to get some testing done next month or in April without it messing with my work schedule too much.
Sleep: I got at least 9 hours every night on the weekend, or at least, that's how long I stayed in bed. I didn't find it too hard to get out of bed. I didn't go to bed earlier than 11:30 on any night though. Last night I stayed up late because of the stomach pain, but I got up at 7AM (my goal time!) so I could get to work a bit early & fill up the car, since I thought I had to take Boyfriend to an appointment mid-day. He was able to reschedule for next week (more convenient for both of us), so I get to leave work early instead I wonder if I'll be able to keep the motivation to get up at 7AM for the rest of the week. Biggest problem is going to be making part of breakfast or lunch the night before so I save prep time in the morning. That's kind of a long-term goal though.
Mood/Brain shizz: Other than getting debilitating anxiety over hanging fliers around town, things have been good. I've felt a little "fluttery", like it's hard to hold onto thoughts, for the past few days. It made it a little hard for me to communicate while I was working on my godfather's computer, but I was fine when we were just chatting later. Maybe just nerves about doing "work" on the weekend/for someone close to me?
Boyfriend pointed out that my underwear was practically falling off of me last night. I guess I don't wear Larges anymore, which makes sense since I'm around college weight again.