Two things about Robin Williams' death (both come with trigger warnings for suicide and mental illness because this is rough stuff)
After a Long Illness | Trout Nation
This is akin to something I wrote on Facebook yesterday. Depression kills. Cancer kills. Not always, but it happens. Depression is unfortunately a silent killer and the most insidious in that it deceives us into thinking I wasn't really a let's-go-see-this-because-he's-in-it fan of RW, but I did enjoy his work and comedy. I appreciate the impact he had on many people's lives and any death to preventable/treatment illness is sad. I do see him as "one of us" now, in that I relate to the struggle he had. I think that is why his death has been difficult for me.
This is a conversation I've had with myself more than a few times. Only once did I try to press the button, only once did mental illness make a push towards killing me, but there have been enough times when I've just gotten by on "I don't want to be here but I'll do it for someone else". What was hard for me is that I didn't have some concrete reason to be depressed like so many people I heard about. No abuse, no neglect, I had a loving family, and financial stability. It's okay to let other people be my reason to stick around, I've realized. You do what it takes to stay here. Everyone is worth it. Everyone has value.