That's great that BF didn't re-hurt his shoulder!
Why do I smell like garlic? I had a little garlic powder on the chicken last night, but not enough to SMELL like it. I feel very self conscious and am glad I'm leaving work soon so no one can smell me =(
*drinks all the water*
Slightly less successful IF today, I guess my body didn't feel like the omelette and protein shake (whey powder, mixed berries, milk, probiotic powder) I had were enough this morning. I really could've used some food to pick me up this afternoon. Not sure if I have enough of anything to make breakfast last the whole day tomorrow =\
Hi! I'm just starting to work my way through the journal forum, and have barely begun yours but want to say that your journey so far is very inspiring, and you are going through/saying so many things I need to hear! I'm looking forward to catching up and excited to see you continue to find health! Cheers!
^Hi Kat, thanks for stopping by! Let me know if you start a journal and I'll be sure to check it out
Budget/cleaning thoughts: I did go through my closet last weekend as intended, but I found very little to get rid of. 2 shirts and 2 pairs of shoes were brought in for the silent auction at work. So far, no bids, so they'll probably end up getting donated somewhere. I'm having a hard time being objective about some of the clothes I own. I may not wear some of them often, but I keep it because it's the only one I own (red cocktail dress), or it's semi-unique (I have two pairs of knee-high boots that I don't wear often, but one pair has no heel and is canvas, the other is leather and has a chunky heel), or I hate wearing the same things over and over so I'm afraid to weed out more. The solution to that seems to be to mix and match and layer, but I'm not really good at that. I'm already wearing the same sweaters over and over to work, so I don't think it would be a huge difference to wear the same shirts at home or when I'm out with friends. This should not be such an issue for me. I can sell that red cocktail dress, but ebay is risky because that particular dress has gone for anything between $20 and $100. It's only been worn once and I want to get a good sale! I should probably get rid of both pairs of knee high boots and just save up for one heel-less leather pair that I really like.
This site has inspired me to be a bit more thorough in my pruning. Boyfriend and I live fairly minimally. The other day we discussed getting rid of our pull-out couch (free from his sister, the pull-out bed is disgusting and mostly broken) in favor of just using the two recliners we have in the living room, or finding a love seat on the curb somewhere. People are frequently getting rid of usable furniture in good weather in our neighborhood. My biggest concern is downsizing my wardrobe, since we don't have much else to get rid of, because fewer clothes means needing to launder more frequently. Perhaps I will look into hand-washing some items (socks) so I can go longer before a wash. Lots of underwear and socks are the things I truly need to go two weeks between laundering. I'll need to rescue my wobbly clothes drying rack from my parents house if I intend on doing this.
I am not ruling out the possibility of downsizing to a cheaper 1br apartment if we can find one in our area this fall. That would mean selling one of the beds (probably mine, sadly, since it's in better shape) and dressers (also mine, but it's old so we probably wouldn't get much for it) and probably getting an air mattress for guests. The biggest problem with a 1br apartment is that most don't come with more than one parking spot. There are municipal lots in my town, but I haven't found any information yet on how to get a spot and how much they cost. I'm not sure how much Boyfriend would like that idea either, and I definitely would not be parking my scooter there.
Sleep: I fell asleep very early last night (no idea what time, probably as early as 9pm), and was so tired that I slept easily with the light on and Boyfriend on his computer in the same room! He joined me very late and is probably missing class right now =\ Yesterday he didn't feel tired, but fell asleep on the train on his way to class...and woke up at the same station, a full train ride later. Scary. I imagine the sleepiness is part of his body's healing process and that eating more nutritious food (and just eating MORE) would probably help him. I think one more night of reasonable sleep and I will feel much last fatigued during the day, regardless of the lack of lunch.
Food: We got sushi last night, in celebration of Boyfriend not being re-broken. It was tasty, I was still hungry after, but I distracted myself and went to bed before I could nibble on anything. The brazil nuts are gone and I finished my last banana when I got home from work. Breakfast today was 2 eggs over easy (no more eggs till the weekend) and a pork chop (well, one and a half, I got bored halfway through the second). So tonight will be sausages, peppers, and onions, since I didn't make them last night. And tomorrow: payday and MEATZZA. I bought some freshly grated mozzarella just for the occasion.
Symptoms: Post nasal drip is still thick and obnoxious, as is the congestion. Today I really need to hydrate and drink some green tea to try and flush this out. It might take a few days for the extra dairy to work through me and stop the inflammation. Boyfriend said I was very cutely snoring last night >< I got my period very suddenly this morning, and the cramps started immediately after. I don't appreciate the sneak attack, but the lack of PMS is nice.
Exercise: I helped rack a server yesterday and they weigh 60lbs so I did not exercise. Lame excuse, since it took all of 60 seconds to get on the rails, and I wasn't lifting it alone. I meant to lift the KB a bit this morning, but had to sew a button on Boyfriend's coat. At least my fine motor skills got a workout =P
Brain shizz: Good. I think I might find the Tyrosine beneficial still, but maybe at a half dose. I'll try half a capsule this weekend and see how that goes.
Weekend goals: More objective tidying and sorting of my belongings, laundering the bedding, rehanging some posters that keep falling down, and getting more eggs!
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Biometrics screening kit arrived and I'm too much of a wuss to do it myself (I can cut myself and draw blood intentionally, but prick my finger with a kit? no fucking way), so I'm having Boyfriend do it. He's not squeamish about these kinds of things, and did first-aid type training in the Army and for his job as a soccer coach last year. He knows how to put in an IV, which I think is pretty cool. I am hesitant to do it this week because of all the sugar I've been eating, I don't want to mess up my results =\ I am supposed to fast 9-12 hrs before hand, hulllooooo overnight!
Sleep: Starting to fail on the sleep front and I'm worried. Last night I think lights were out by 11pm, but around 11:45 I was not asleep because I could hear (through the ear on the pillow, other one had the plug in) Boyfriend trying to cut up his brownies in the kitchen (did I mentioned our apartment has no insulation?). I zombied in and out to whine about the noise and don't think I really fell asleep until after he came to bed (not long after). He tried to talk to me at some point in the night and I remember him saying "I love you" and I'm not sure if I responded. Come morning, I almost did not get out of bed when my alarm went off. I can feel the tiredness under my eyes. I told Boyfriend I remembered him speaking to me and he said he spoke to me a number of times and I responded with things like, "I need to sleep!" Now I'm mad that he kept speaking to me because he fucking woke me up!
Food: I did not want to make breakfast. Last night was a carb fest, we had rice & sausages. I don't think I can trust my body with anything when I'm on my period. I also got gelato when Boyfriend took us out (felt good to have him driving again) for a sugar run, and ate 2 servings (half the container). Over 50g of sugar. And probably because of that, I had no interest in food this morning. I chugged the last of my protein powder in water (disgusting), so there's 25g of protein at least. Water seems to be perking me up a bit, but not much.
Symptoms: Tired, grouchy, inaccurate hunger signals. If I had the gelato with me right now, I would throw it out, but I imagine I'll keep it and finish it before next week >< my flow is absurdly heavy. That usually interferes with me sleeping properly because I worry about leakage. This period is the first time I've realized how HEAVY my flow is and now I'm concerned. And you KNOW the doc will suggest going on BC. Fuck you.
Mood/brain: Irritable, depressed, agitated. Thinking okay, but I think you can tell by the way I'm writing this entry that I'm not all right today. I simultaneously want to punch something and cry. I am trying not to think about budget or groceries or anything because I will just get more upset. Seriously, I'm getting upset because I forgot to get more BACON and I really wanted some this weekend. FML, I hope I can find something to make today go by quickly. I really hate myself today.
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Tired, grouchy, inaccurate hunger signals.Irritable, depressed, agitated.I know corelation isn't causation, but let's be honest. I'm seeing a pattern here.I forgot to get more BACON
Aahhh. If only that was it. I know the sugar is a big factor. We'll just see how the rest of February goes with no sugar except for the small amount in squash-veggies. The worst part is that once I give in to sugar, I'm reliant on it for moods. I know a spoonful of honey would perk me up right now and it has NOTHING to do with it being amazing honey and EVERYTHING to do with the sugar.
I ate my lunch (rice & sausage leftovers) and am feeling a bit better. I think it's tea time.
Things worth sharing before I vanish from my journal for the weekend (I'll still check in
Infographic of the Week: Carbs are Killing You [Infographic] | Food+Tech Connect
Absolutely LOVE this break-down of macronutrient processing. Much nicer than Fat Head, but saying the same things.
Ramblings, Ravings and Rants.: Self challenge!
For a challenge on checking in with yourself, saying positive things, and self-portraits. The challenge reminded me that I'm not keeping up with my photography goals and also made me think about my critical eye when it comes to self-portraits. I know that my camera lens is not what I'd like it to be, but I think I'm very hard about how my face is proportioned when I take photos of myself. I may consider doing a self-portrait challenge for a month to try and push that insecurity a little.
Though I know it doesn't always feel that way it does sound like you are on your way up. If I was graphing your progress my guess would be that it would go up then dip, up then dip, but overall it would still be heading in a positive direction. At least you are motivated and working hard towards your goals.
Notebook of a Nutrition Nerd
‘THE FOOD YOU EAT CAN BE THE SAFEST AND MOST POWERFUL FORM OF MEDICINE OR THE SLOWEST RELEASING POISON' - Dr Ann Wigmore.