It feels a little strange to read and comment on these journals sometimes. Like yes they're purposefully public and nothing is shared without permission, but this is deeply personal and heavy stuff. It's probably easy to say the wrong things.
Sitting with your emotions is a great way to better understand them and yourself. One problem with it though is that we often confuse our thoughts for emotions. Bad thoughts feed into the bad emotion and amplify the emotion. If you can, try to sit quietly with your feelings and really focus on them, without adding in any of the stories. The stories we tell ourselves can confuse things and take us further from reality :/
If you can feel the emotion as a physical sensation in your body, try paying very close attention to that. And try to remember that you're not defined by your emotions. Emotional states are friendly visitors. You're not sad; you're experiencing sadness. Sometime in the future you won't be.
I hope you feel better soon <3
Music of the day/week/month/whatever:
The Bird and the Bees - Love Letter to Japan https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWYoIoqJURA