Hah, we'll see how my willpower turns out. I got myself to resist having more than one conventional brownie when I was still eating them, but they were big brownies. If these are made especially for me, I don't think I could resist. But maybe it wouldn't be such a bad thing to avoid sweets altogether but let myself have a "primal binge" day of primal sweets (a pan of delicious brownies) and treats (meatzza! because I think I'll mostly stay off dairy) every now and then. I've also found it much easier to stop myself from mini binges on things like almond butter and nuts (my only "treat" during the Whole30) lately, and recognizing when I'm eating blindly, without regard to actual hunger. Maybe it'll work out, we'll just have to see.
But right now, I really just want a pan of brownies.
Food: I made some delicious almond-flour crusted chicken breasts last night. Leftover drumsticks for lunch. Boyfriend has been feeling sick and the doctor said he's blocked up and has a bug, and should have more fiber (yeah, whatever, he has veggies with dinner every night). I say he should just eat more veggies, but take a laxative tonight to start from a clean slate. He's still on pain killers after all and those can cause constipation, so I don't think it's going to magically get fixed just by eating more fiber. Fuck doctors.
Sleep: I stayed up reading again, fell asleep with an earplug in. Boyfriend woke me up when he came to bed late and I felt very awake for a while so we chatted a bit and I'm not sure how much I ended up sleeping before the alarm went off (i don't know when he came to bed). I'm tired, but not worn out or exhausted.
Mood/focus: I'm only grinding gears in the car when I drive with Boyfriend now. I guess I just get extra nervous about how I'm driving since it's his car and I'm still not a really great driver. My focus isn't 100% and I wonder if I do need the 3 servings of probiotic a day, or it's the lack of Vitamin D (still waiting for the non-citrus kind to arrive). I wonder if I could take a double dose of the probiotic in the morning or evening so I don't have to worry about refrigerating it at work and forgetting it there. My new stock of Theanine came in so I'm starting on that again. Just gotta keep plugging away until my body hands me the answers. I'll do three doses a day of the probiotic this weekend again. I hope it does not create more problems if I am not super consistent with it =\
Exercise: The will is there, the motivation is not. I hope my baby biceps don't disappear!