I'm still thinking about starting a new journal next month, but I don't know what to call it. I feel like I want to write a bit of a mission statement about my goals for functional fitness and sticking with diet challenges (to identify my sensitivities/intolerances). I want to focus on moving forward, on making progress, and on finding solutions, rather than wallowing. I've made so much progress in many ways over the past three years and I want want to spend more time looking towards the future.
Recently, I had a nice glimpse back at how my anxiety used to be. I remember I used to feel like my head was stuck in a loop in the mornings. I would start drafting my journal entry for the day (here on MDA) in my head while I drove my scooter or the car to work. It was frustrating because I would just get anxious trying to clear my head. Now, I might start drafting a post in my head, but it feels productive. I often don't end up writing any of it here because I forget by the time I get to work. It's mostly just a habit now. I find that narrating things in my head helps me sort things out. I have come to a lot of realizations regarding my health and mental state that way! That's how I resolve minor arguments with Hulky, too.
Hulky gets his contact lenses tonight, I'm so excited (focusing on that rather than how I'm bummed about not being able to get a tattoo). He had trouble taking them out last time he was at the optometrist's. His fine motor skills are not the best. I expect he'll get better at it over time, enough to keep using them anyway. I imagine I would be pretty bad at it too. I can barely put on eye make-up whiteout my eyelids fluttering all over the place. I hope he still plans to get a pair of glasses with the proper prescription so he isn't switching back and forth between an up-to-date and outdated prescription.