Page 691 of 776 FirstFirst ... 191591641681689690691692693701741 ... LastLast
Results 6,901 to 6,910 of 7757

Thread: Anxiety, depression, laziness...Can the nameless wonder change? page 691

  1. #6901
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    Primal Blueprint Expert Certification
    Snuggle Pumpkin progress report: she now lets us pick her up for very short periods of time. Sometimes, I just pick her up and put her on my lap. She'll stay there for a little and roll around for pets. We have been able to clip her claws, usually one at a time, over the course of several days. Good progress! We even vacuumed in her room and she didn't go into hiding for hours (just like 15 minutes).

    I just made an amazing smoothie. Banana, 2 T almond butter, almond milk, 1 T maple syrup, 1 T cocoa powder, 3 T collagen hydrosylate, and 1 T diatomaceous earth. Not very filling, unfortunately.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  2. #6902
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    I had a bad stomachache for a good portion of yesterday. I wonder if it was from the smoothie. I also did not have a BM. I took cascara sagrada last night, don't want to take any chances. Hulky went out with friends and I played video games until much too late.

    Pumpkin seems to be interested in raw food with no effort on my part. Fae whines in the morning after I feed her and follows me around. While we were in the dining room, Pumpkin snuck into the kitchen and started eating Fae's food. If Fae didn't gain weight on commercial food, I'd swap their meals immediately! I guess I really need to get some more jars & small containers so they can both go raw. This will require some extra explaining to FIL when he feeds the cats when we are out of town (just means you put a frozen container in the fridge every time you remove one for a meal). Previously, I'd just had him feed Fae canned food while we were gone.

    I should get out on my bike today. The plan is to bike to work tomorrow so Hulky can get to his doctor's appointment about the concussion. I am sure it will be a difficult ride.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  3. #6903
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    Didn't bike today, but had a pretty good day aside from another stomachache. I think I forcefully forgot that almond butter wrecks my gut. I don't think my response was as bad last time, if this is what's causing the problems. Could be the DE. I haven't had any yet today.

    Hulky and I went over to my parents' house for a bit. I stayed for dinner, he went and had dinner with his parents. Lamb curry om nom nom.

    I has no lunch for tomorrow. Poor planning and no motivation. It's getting pretty bad, if it's not just "bad" already. I don't have enough energy leftover for myself after keeping Hulky running. I need a vacation from everything, including apartment maintenance and feeding myself. I need to come up with some REALLY easy meals for the next week. I think I might get a bit Peat-ish and eat a bunch of mangoes or other non-citrus fruits.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  4. #6904
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    I think I dreamt last night that I quit MDA. I can't remember now how it felt. I think I felt relieved. Recently, I thought about deleting this journal, but I like having a record of things. I think it's more likely that I'll start a new journal soon. Maybe in July, for my 3-year anniversary on MDA . I'll have to think about what I want to call it. I want it to be about positivity and getting things done. It's time to leave the laziness behind, even if the depression & anxiety are always things I'll have to deal with. The goal is to limit that extent, of course.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGb6KYJ3qpA&feature=kp
    This band has been fueling my past few days.


    This song is pretty damn sad, but it exemplifies anxiety & depression perfectly. Hulky shared it with me.

    I biked to work this morning. It was my best ride yet this season, I didn't have to downshift at all and I feel like I recovered from the ride fairly quickly. I can't tell you how inspiring that is, to know that my body is cooperating in at least one respect!

    I wrote an ode to my body somewhat recently on here, but I have to say I've been pretty negative things about it lately. I don't know why, but I really don't like my knees! How random/absurd is that? I just feel like they're too big. I know exactly how my legs are inclined to go since they look so much like my mom's, but she is quite a bit heavier than me. For being fairly long, they are also fairly solidly built. I just gotta stack some muscle on them and I'll feel better. I got back to picking up the kettlebell for overhead presses this weekend and am already making strides there. I think my left arm somehow got stronger than my right!

    My gut continues to be wonky. It must be the DE. I will give it a little longer before giving up on it. Maybe I just jumped in with too much. I'll try knocking it back to 1 tsp for the rest of the week. I'm using cascara sagrada every night for now and taking 200 mg of mag citrate with each meal (that doesn't seem to be cutting it). I'm also taking Primal Defense (probiotic) between breakfast & lunch (empty stomach) and before bed. Too soon to say how it affects me, but I have noticed some gut gurgling from it.

    I had an amazing mango & banana smoothie this morning. I need more frozen mangoes so I can make this again!

    I am determined to get on top of making lunches this week. I'll do some brainstorming today. I need easy/fun things.

    I feel much better today than I did last week. I think my moods are finally turning around. The pimples are healing up too.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  5. #6905
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    I want to be able to run 5k without walking breaks by the end of the summer (I will start running again once I'm comfortable cycling 5x a week). I got close to 5k total for a run last summer, but with walking breaks, so I don't think it'll take too much. I'll definitely do the Couch to 5k interval thing.

    I kind of want to lean out. Just a little. For now though, I'm just focusing on getting back into cycling shape & working on my upper body as much as I can remember to. I have no idea how to lean out .
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  6. #6906
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    This is a long read, but worth it, IMO.
    Why So

    I need to remember that there is not a cure, there is a combination that will keep me healthy and sane. There is no reason to go diving off the deep end because ONE thing didn't work, or even a million things didn't work. I have to keep my variables under control so I can see the bigger picture. Am I expecting DE to solve my gut woes? No, absolutely not. Gluten-free helps, there's no doubt about that. When I've gone longer without it, there's no reason why I can't have it from time to time, but I'm talking maybe once a month for an occasion, not one week on, one week off.

    I'm getting back to the point where, despite my impatience, I'm enjoying my personal experiments. What will happen?! Will my hair grow out long and strong? My nails are doing nicely again, will my skin follow suit? I think fixing my dry skin would be a good focus. I should start adding some coconut oil to my diet, even if it's supplemental.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  7. #6907
    tomi's Avatar
    tomi is online now Senior Member
    Join Date
    Dec 2011
    Location
    Pacific NW
    Posts
    6,654
    Quote Originally Posted by namelesswonder View Post
    I need to remember that there is not a cure, there is a combination that will keep me healthy and sane. There is no reason to go diving off the deep end because ONE thing didn't work, or even a million things didn't work. I have to keep my variables under control so I can see the bigger picture. Am I expecting DE to solve my gut woes? No, absolutely not. Gluten-free helps, there's no doubt about that. When I've gone longer without it, there's no reason why I can't have it from time to time, but I'm talking maybe once a month for an occasion, not one week on, one week off.
    This is also my thinking of late ........... we have opposite gut issues..... but are trying so many of the same things to fix it. My poor choices are my worse enemy.

    My mantra needs to be "MAKE GOOD CHOICES".
    Read post #2626
    my motivation

    I'm doing this because I'm worth it - because I'm worthy - because I love myself.

    Goals: Healthy mind, healthy body, happy soul.

  8. #6908
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    My brain is busy today, I'm trying to put it to good use.

    But man, my baby hormones are rearing their cute little heads again. I got to hold SIL's youngest over the weekend (6 mos now) and omgerrrddddd he is just the cutest. He looks like the Gerber baby! Maybe it's because I got the IUD out (because now I know I could get pregnant). NOW IS NOT THE TIME, BODY, SH BE QUIET. Hulky and I are going to make such cute babies someday.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  9. #6909
    namelesswonder's Avatar
    namelesswonder is offline Moderator
    Join Date
    Jul 2011
    Location
    MA, USA
    Posts
    12,078
    Hulky's doctor appointment was good news: no indications of neurological issues, a CT scan is not necessary. It will just take time for the PCS to go away. He also got a referral to get his knee checked out.

    Not good news: his dad got a new job (well that's not bad) and Hulky no longer has dual insurance. Hopefully, nothing too pricey comes along. I am basically expecting to shell out $250 this year in medical bills so he can reach his individual deductible.
    Journal on depression/anxiety
    Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).

  10. #6910
    tomi's Avatar
    tomi is online now Senior Member
    Join Date
    Dec 2011
    Location
    Pacific NW
    Posts
    6,654
    I'm sorry you're losing that double coverage - that was sweet!!! But, consider yourself lucky........... our plan has a $6500 deductible per person or $12,500 per family. OUCHY! However - the first 6 doctor visits are covered with a $30 copay, after that the deductible applies. And labs and Rx are covered with copays or a percentage. So - the deductible only kicks in if you have to have surgery or an MRI or some other invasive type procedure. I'm hoping 2015 will be a strong year for the boatshop and we will be able to buy better insurance.
    Read post #2626
    my motivation

    I'm doing this because I'm worth it - because I'm worthy - because I love myself.

    Goals: Healthy mind, healthy body, happy soul.

Tags for this Thread

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
  •