First, a blast from the past. My sister and I as the Tooth Fairy and a Care Bear, respectively. This was my first Halloween trick-or-treating.
Second, this is me with my new baby nephew last night! He's only 2 days old .
He smells like baby and he was so cute and wiggly and then he fell asleep in my arms while sucking on my pinkie finger asd;ljas;dlfj;lk Hulky was adorable with him. I teased him a little and he said, "I couldn't stop smiling at him!" When his first nephew was born, Hulky was still in the Army. He got to see his niece a few times when she was really little, but I don't think he really got to connect with her and now she's 4! The third baby was born 2.5 years ago, and we got to see him for the first time when he was just a couple of days old, but it didn't seem significant. I was so nervous about holding a baby. Something seems different about this one though. I felt much more confident holding baby J. Hulky kept worrying about everything the baby was doing, but he just had gas haha. I hope we get to see more of baby J before he gets too big! The other kids were Mario, a fairy princess, and a monster (oldest to youngest) for Halloween.
So my evening got better. Hulky spoke to Coach, who said that he'd have to think about having someone stay with us for an extended time. The thing is we really have no idea how long N would be with us. I called N and let him know Coach is thinking about it. N said he hoped it wouldn't be longer than a month and I think that's as long as I could handle (and I'm concerned about what would happen with Thanksgiving). But we'll see what Coach says. We have to drop rent checks off tonight anyway so maybe he'll have an answer for us. I'm still on the fence about whether to say no to N because of my poor stress handling capabilities right now or just use Coach as an excuse. I'm really torn between wanting to say yes and wanting to say no. N is being really understanding about it though and appreciates us even considering it, but it's so hard to hear your friend talk about sleeping in 24/7 grocery stores if he has to because he has nowhere else to stay. Apparently shelters are hard to get into in Boston. He's looking into doing sleep studies, which would get him a good amount of money & give him somewhere to stay. I'm trying not to feel guilty, but how can I not? I still don't know what to do. I called him last night and was going to say no for my stress, but I couldn't. The words changed as they came out of my mouth.
I forgot that N doesn't know a lot about my personal history & issues. We kind of talked about that and I think it will help that he is somewhat aware of my disorders now. We agreed that we should sit down and swap stories sometime, so that will be nice.
BM - Nothing yesterday. Type 3/4 mid-morning today.
Food - I'll get back to tracking next week or this weekend. Along with the chocolate bar yesterday, I had some tiramisu, a couple of small pieces of candy, and a small gluten-free pizza. Hulky's family ordered pizza and FIL very kindly ordered from the only place in town with gluten-free pizza, just for me . Today I've only had OJ w/ collagen hydrosylate and supplements so far, including caprylic acid (have been taking it for the past few days) for that pesky rash.
Body - I feel weak. I am sleeping well, but having weird dreams. It's all stress. I wish it was just a matter of sleeping enough, but I have to eat well and I don't know. I just feel so messed up.
I think next year for Halloween, I will be Sabriel. At the very least, I can make a basic outfit & build a bell bandoleer (I'm sure I can find varying bell sizes in antique shops). If I wanted to make it a regular outfit for cosplay (if I ever go to conventions or faires), I'd work on getting some keys on the surcoat. From the looks of it, most people just use silver pen or paint to get the keys on, which would be time consuming, but doable.