I am so envious that you live anywhere within driving distance of raw milk. I've never tried it, but I love all things dairy (except drinking it straight ironically...). Oh the cheese I ate on leave back home. So. Much. Drools.
(Hoping the high fruit goes well for you. I used to be a slave to my blood sugar, like eat every two hours or I'm ripping heads, but keeping fruits around makes me feel good in a way that strict paleo never did.)
Today's breakfast was not adequate for the stress-load I'm under. I mean, I know it was inadequate in general, but there's a mess at work and I am not dealing well. I just wolfed down my apple & orange and I have soup, but that won't be enough.
I can't leave my desk for long as we're having major network issues and I am the middle man, but there is nothing else I can do to help. I am annoyed that no one is communicating with me on the progress and I hate not knowing what is going on.
Sorry you're having such a rough day. I hope things get better for you soon.
Thanks for the love. Very much appreciated.
That network bullshit just took up most of my day (slight plus that I'm out of here in about an hour?). I'm determined to get certified in goddamn everything so I don't have to feel clueless. I hate being the person that people go to for help and not being able to DO anything. I was speaking directly with these people and STILL not getting questions answered. I think I'm going to craft a complaint to my boss, just need some distance from today so I can think clearly about it.
In the midst of this, something positive: my friend from my last job is having an interview here on Wednesday. He's riding in to work with me . I gotta have my shit together Wednesday AM so we can get out of the door on time!
I am feeling whoozy and sick-ish again. I wish I could know if this is period-related or something I'm fighting off. I just feel kind of light-headed and bone tired.
Another silver lining is that the niacinamide & Vit D/K I ordered should arrive tomorrow. I like getting new supplements .
Just wanted to let you know I called the VA today to inquire about VA benefit payments. The recording said that October payments will go out as scheduled and will be received by beneficiaries on 1 November. Thought I'd at least ease your stress a bit in that regard.
If you wish to hear this message yourself, you may do so by dialing 800-827-1000. It's like the first thing they say after "Thank you for calling the VA".
Enjoy the rest of your day.
Thanks, Jenn, that is great news! I am still going to worry a little until the money comes through though . I don't think I'll ever lose all of my worrying tendencies. I know a lot of it stems from the anxiety so it's not always that bad.
I had a giant mopefest last night. I got home & squirted some tears on Hulky & he snuggled me and let me whine for a bit. I took on some small tasks and got my head on straight. Thank goodness I had some food leftover from last night (since Hulky is still not eating much & kind of fending for himself) so I didn't go down the street for the $5 large cheese pizza. I washed a bunch of dishes, cooked up the last of the meat to be eaten today, made a plan for grocery shopping, and made a trip out to CVS for some Halloween candy & acetaminophen. I also had time to veg and finish season 1 of Arrow. That show has some excellent eye candy for those attracted to the male physique.
Hulky and I talked about the Mustang. I guess we are keeping it, since we may need the second car next year when Hulky is working. His dad is going to get the radiator squared away for us, he just hasn't had time lately. My monthly insurance payment is going up by $5/mo for some reason. I have no idea why the premium would be increasing. Hulky is 25 now and that's the big price drop age for male drivers. His insurance went down by quite a bit this summer. I hope that within a couple of years, we would have the spare money to buy a used car (cash in hand) that doesn't need nearly as much work & get rid of the Mustang. The interior is a mess (it's missing a lot of the headliner), it needs new window seals almost everywhere, and it needs a new door popping system (it doesn't have door handles and we would need new doors in order to have handles). I just don't want to work on it!
-~1 pint of OJ w/ collagen hydrosylate, 3 prunes, 3 sausage links (this was fairly filling through till lunch at noon)
-last of the chicken soup (time to find something else for lunches), apple, some butternut squash puree
-pumpkin pie soda http://maineroot.com/sodas/pumpkin-pie-soda/
-butternut squash puree, 2 small burger patties
-bowl of Trader Joe's pumpkin ice cream
BM - Type 1 this morning, after eating. Type 3 mid-morning.
Another poster said in someone's journal than on low-carb they had even moods, but higher carb, they have more passionate moods (my interpretation of their words). Unrelated to the mopefest, I do see this as true for myself. It's not that I feel more sad when I'm sad, but I do feel more happy when I'm happy. It's a deeper feeling. And I do think it has made a difference for my libido, when stress doesn't get in the way of that.
Last edited by namelesswonder; 10-23-2013 at 05:56 AM.
Have you told the insurance company you're married yet? Usually that will reduce your rates as well... the increase is probably a yearly rate increase and nothing you have done wrong, but then again, could be related to the accident with the Civic. You should call the insurance provider and ask why your rates went up. Ours went up recently and I learned it was a combination of my last three speeding tickets (I had a string of bad luck - I speed all the time, but there was a year long stretch where I got 3 tickets b/c I wasn't using my cruise control and sped just a bit too much and didn't see the cops before they saw me. lol) and yearly rate increase. Supposedly you can avoid this yearly rate increase by shopping for insurance every year, but who's got time for that?