Aw wow Tasha, both of us spilling our guts within a few minutes of each other! Hugs to you too.
Can I ask why you feel guilty about the miscarriage? It wasn't your fault. It's very difficult to maintain a pregnancy with low progesterone (which you had?) And you certainly don't need to feel guilty about being laxidazical with condom use... I'd love to know the stats of how many people in existence were planned! I bet most of us were... surprises
I can't fully understand what you're going through, but i do know that time always makes things better. And it's not your fault.
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"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat