Dudes, I feel like sharing today. This is on my mind. This is probably more personal than usual.
I have had baby craze all year. Maybe longer. At some point in the last year, the topic of having a baby came up and it was suddenly appealing to both Hulky and me. Of course, it was entirely impractical. School, finances, time etc. I had to talk us both down from it. But I've been reading birth stories occasionally and poking around at all kinds of natural pregnancy/birth stuff... I figured, what's the harm in being informed/prepared? We have talked about it further since then. Hulky does not feel emotionally/mentally prepared for a baby soon. I'm not sure... I think I might be ready. I have some misgivings, but I feel like the obvious deadline of baby-due-in-x-months would help.
The IUD is safe. There is no chance for mistakes. If something goes wrong, it won't be on us. That is relieving. But I think the semi-permanence of it has kind of depressed me and killed my sex drive a little (but it's only been a week so I'm sure things will change). There's (for all intents and purposes) no chance of baby until the thing is removed, so it's entirely on us to plan it out. I guess I'm a bit sad that we're not in a place that a spontaneous pregnancy is an option. I've been saying maybe we'll have a baby in 2-3 years, but the other day Hulky said 5... It's something that I need to talk to him about. He needs to know what's going through my head. I think I'm just getting a bit ahead of myself. For now, I have plenty to look forward to, both short term and long term.
Just thinking. Thanks for reading.
-SIL's baby due sometime this month, unless it's late, then early next month. Someone else's baby won't be as exciting as my own would be, but maybe it will help.
-We are having a Hallowe'en party on the 26th. I might do another Harley Quinn costume. Hulky needs to decide what he wants to be soon or I'm leaving him to put his own costume together.
-I think we'll visit Baba some weekend this month or next.
-Thanksgiving is next month?! I want to splurge and try a grain-free cinnamon roll recipe. Hulky and I will make dinner for ourselves. Not sure I want to roast a turkey.
-Christmas is sooner than I'd like to admit. I'm looking forward to helping SIL's kids with presents & picking a tree out with Hulky. I think we'll get it earlier than usual this year. Hmm... I should probably get going on applesauce soon if that's going to be my gift for everyone other than Hulky again.
-If we don't have a New Year's party, we'll go to Medieval Manor with the other Hulkys for the second year in a row and it should be a blast. This time, maybe I can drink and I won't feel uncomfortable with Hulky going out w/ his brother after, since Hulky doesn't have a cast on (FINGERS AND TOES CROSSED THAT HE DOESN'T GET HURT FOR THE 3RD WINTER IN A ROW).
-Anytime now, we can be planning our honeymoon for March .
-Hulky graduates in May of next year! We will find a way to celebrate, just the two of us.
The scary stuff (Hulky finding a job) I am ignoring for now.
Sidenote: I am considering registering as a Dudeist priest. I don't think I know anybody that would ask me to marry them, but it just seems like an appealing thing to do. Dudeism - The Religion of The Big Lebowski | Free online ordination as a minister at Dudeism