Anxiety, depression, laziness...Can the nameless wonder change? page 50

[fpsjosh01]

I see lots of vegetables and sugar, but not enough fried vegetables in your food. Could that be why you have lots of sugar cravings lately?

I know that eating sugar made me hungrier for sugar, because my body was telling me I was hungry again (thanks leptin.)

Really taking control of my hunger was as simple as ONE meal a day, lots of fried vegetables, a big red meat source, and an omelette. (see my food porn for some really good ideas.)

I hope this helps.

[namelesswonder]

Yeah definitely too much sugar. Fried veggies is a good suggestion to for incorporating fats with my food. Usually the fat comes from my protein source, but I have no idea how much that would ultimately come out to.

The veggies you eat look good. What exactly are you eating? =P It just occurred to me that some pan fried sweet potatoes would be really tasty and I should definitely attempt that soon.

Hair: I just cannot use ACV in my hair. I used BS today, but filled the measuring cup with water and just poured it over my head. I had worked my fingers around on my scalp before this (which felt like it helped significantly), and then I did it again. It seemed to work a lot better than making a paste. I figured WTH and tried the same with ACV and not rinsing after. Back to smelling dirty and feeling icky. I braided half of my head. I suck at braiding but my hair is long enough for me to manage okay. I only had one elastic, so the other side was not an option I think it looks kind of cool anyway.



Back to just conditioner tomorrow, I guess! My braid will probably be wet all day. I brought my hair brush to work to fluff up the other side of my head later, now that it's dry.

Food stuffs: Last night I made meatloaf (picked up some cheese on the way home from work, but Shaws doesn't have uncured bacon). It came out better than our last attempt, I think. I had half the pan and boyfriend had 1/4, so the rest will be my lunch today. I made a big portion of broccoli and sprinkled some salt over it. Love me some salt. I was too exhausted for breakfast this morning. I also have a banana with me, and think I might try to eat it soon. Dinner will prolly be chicken stirfry, so there will be some "fried" veggies. Not sure if I should use olive oil or coconut oil.

Boyfriend and I made a late night trip to CVS so I could get my chocolate on. I got a bar of Godiva 85%. I think I like Lindt better (and it's cheaper), and will stick with 90%. It's not sweet, but it's so much more interesting and I really enjoy it. I ate two squares, but really could've stopped at one. Next time I'll just take one off the bar so I don't eat another just because it's there. I plan on making that bar last me as long as possible. Maybe even as long as Christmas! I was really tempted to have some of the vanilla ice cream in our freezer last night. "It's not December yet!" I resisted and feel like it will be easier to resist moving forward.

Sleep: I stayed up late finishing The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman, which I enjoyed. Then boyfriend & were rough-housing and his shoulder got hurt. I slept alone until ~4AM when the pain had subsided enough for him to try to sleep I feel really guilty, but it was an accident and I know he doesn't blame me. So I did not have a good night of sleep. Skipping food this morning allowed me to get to work semi-on-time at least.

Overall health: Feeling queasy and off again today. Lack of food or sleep or illness? I'll try to eat a little soon. My stomach is still a little bloated, or maybe it's weight gain at this point, I can't really tell. I'm not worried about it, but it is my indicator that something is not quite right. The broccoli seemed to help get out some of the excess gas I had yesterday. It was painful enough that I considered going to the walk-in clinic at the hospital, but I felt foolish for considering it because it was "only gas". And w hat could they do, anyway? I am also wondering if the probiotics are suspect. I think I might stop taking them until I feel better overall, so I can rule out any issues there. I am going to sneak out of work early if possible because I feel really terrible. Monday evening when I was feeling really bad, boyfriend said I should not go to work. I missed a lot of days over the summer (a day every two weeks, if not more) and worked from home without prior authorization. It got me into trouble and I was told by my manager in CA that I would have been fired if I'd been working out there. Now I am very nervous about taking days off for illness. I need to save up those days for next Spring (vacation & Aunt's wedding in MD) and I don't want to risk losing my job. I can still work when I'm sick like this, I'm just terribly uncomfortable

Brain: Whatever, I don't care about that today. Focus is fine. I'm just feeling kind of bummed and frustrated about the overall health issues that have been going on for over a week now.

[fpsjosh01]

Example dinner.

2$ bacon wrapped steak from Aldis
3 egg omelette with 6 mini slices of bacon, and tomatoes (optional obviously)
frozen veggies fried in a pan (as many veggies as you like)
Smother EVERYTHING in butter.

That's a pretty good calorie count too. Just make sure the rest of your day is light.

Edit: Hey look! Mark beat me to it.

http://www.marksdailyapple.com/how-to-eat-more-fat/

[namelesswonder]

I haven't been eating eggs for the past few weeks with much frequency. That could definitely be having an affect on my health, as they were probably a major source of fuel for me. I need to get a good night of sleep and eat a real breakfast. I find myself waiting for something to change, waiting for the motivation to do things right, and that's no good. I have to do it myself.

okay my brain is fine today in most respects, but I can't bring myself to go into the kitchen and heat up my meatloaf. I don't like people at work seeing what I eat. I get nervous being around people I don't know well with my food. Weird! I don't think I've always been this way, and I don't think it's a terribly recent hing either.

Time for my Theanine.

[fpsjosh01]

I haven't been eating eggs for the past few weeks with much frequency. That could definitely be having an affect on my health, as they were probably a major source of fuel for me. I need to get a good night of sleep and eat a real breakfast. I find myself waiting for something to change, waiting for the motivation to do things right, and that's no good. I have to do it myself.

okay my brain is fine today in most respects, but I can't bring myself to go into the kitchen and heat up my meatloaf. I don't like people at work seeing what I eat. I get nervous being around people I don't know well with my food. Weird! I don't think I've always been this way, and I don't think it's a terribly recent hing either.

Time for my Theanine.

Last comment today, promise!

You can do it, just don't forget where your true source of energy lies. Animal fats run even the people who eat potatoes and rice on this forum.

Thank you for keeping us updated on how you're doing! It helps me get through my day too.

[drssgchic]

Thin-sliced sweet potatoes fried in a pan? Oooh yeah. Last night they were fried in butter and I almost (almost) wasn't interested in the accompanying steak.

I've always been impressed by people who could braid their own hair. I only just learned how to french braid mine. I could do anyone else's, but mine was beyond me. I think it looks good! I might be biased.

Poor Boyfriend! If he would just give in and switch all the way over he'd be much harder to hurt!

I've got nothing terribly clever to say about the gas except maybe cut out anything you aren't sure is perfectly mild on your innards for a little while?

[namelesswonder]

Yeah coconut products are out for the rest of the week. I'll just focus on butter

[fpsjosh01]

Hey nameless you can ALWAYS focus on butter. Big kg is the best antidepressant weight loss supplement ever created.

[ottercat]

wow, spammer attack!
I wonder if you tried some kind of elimination diet to find out what's bothering your stomach. People can be allergic to certain meats.

[namelesswonder]

I have an appointment with a nutritionist tomorrow AM and she'll probably talk to me about elimination diets. I'm semi looking forward to it.

I slept all day today. Well, practically. Boyfriend dragged me to lunch around 11AM (I got a chicken avocado salad, probably shouldn't have eaten the sour cream because it made my throat really phlegmy), we watched a couple of Full Metal Alchemist episodes when we got back, and then I slept on and off on the couch for 3-4 more hours.

Sleep deprivation for the win.

Boyfriend will prolly make hot dog omelettes tonight (Hebrew National yummy). I am going to play Skyrim and relax. No supps today.