^See previous post for review of doctor's appointment and things I'll be doing soon in regards to health and finding answers.
And now, for your entertainment: what happened to me 7 years ago when I OD'd on Tylenol PM.
A couple months ago, I mentioned here that I was looking into retrieving my medical records from my hospitalization in 2004. The papers finally came in a couple of days ago, and included a formal report of my status from within 24 hours of my intake, a formal report shortly before I was released, and my doctor's hand-written notes from throughout my 3-4 day stay. The only health concern that was noted on the papers was of course the excess of Acetomenaphin in my system, and how that was treated, and sinus tachycardia. This explains the elevated heart rate I experienced around that time. It's interesting to note that I continued to experience excessively elevated heart rate after this for at least several months, which may indicate inappropriate sinus tachycardia. I never brought this up to doctors after, or to my parents, as I wasn't really concerned about my health at the time. I was still too depressed to care, but I can remember clearly how difficult even walking home from school with a light backpack was for a while. It was a long time before I really felt physically recovered from that, but I am pretty sure I have no lingering issues for that.
The doctor's hand-written notes quoted some of my comments, which was really the most distressing part of the whole package. It was upsetting to read about how I felt at the time, as I could suddenly remember saying all of those things. I wouldn't say that the memories were repressed, but without a trigger, I definitely would not have recalled ever having said that I felt like I was a burden on my family. I nearly cried reading those words, but more out of relief that I am no longer in such a dark place, than self-pity. I spent a few moments reflecting on my extreme sadness and helplessness years ago, and then went and played more Skyrim. Overall, I'm glad I finally got those records, and will be storing them someplace safe for reference/simply for preservation.
Stuff about today...
Supps: fish oil, Tyrosine, Theanine (oh yeah, doc said to stay on that & fish oil before the urine test, but stop everything else for 2 days), plus the 300mg of 5-HTP last night. I decided to go without the GABA Calm this morning, just for the heck of it, but I have some in my bag if I want to try some in the afternoon. I am in a good mood today and looking forward to going out to some circus show with a friend tonight. My focus isn't awesome, but it's not terrible either. I had trouble remembering my supplements under "pressure" at the doctor's office, but that is pretty usual for me. I wonder if the GABA would have helped with that. I might take the GABA soon to see if my focus changes over the afternoon.
Sleep: I seem to always wake up around 7am, but am truly incapable of getting out of bed until at least 8am, which means I really need to keep making an effort to get to bed early. I still keep fighting the tiredness that comes around 10pm and staying up till 11 and 12. Cortisolllllll daammmnnn yyyoouuuuu... Fingers crossed that the saliva test comes up with anything conclusive!
Food: The freezer really turned things around last night! I forgot we had another lb of ground beef, and half a bag of frozen peppers, so voila. Beef & peppers for dinner (so much water from both being frozen [defrosted beef before cooking obv, but it still retains a lot of water], I hate straining dinner). The added salt & pepper really helped. I cooked it all up in coconut oil (licking the knife after getting it out of the jar and into the pan, it's always solid in my apartment) and thought it was pretty tasty, though definitely not enough food after 24hr fast. I didn't realize until later in the evening that since I hadn't eaten all day, I had done a 24hr fast! It DEFINITELY helps my brain to do these long fasts. I bought some cottage cheese (~4% fat), honey & KERRY GOLD BUTTER, and had some of the first two items for brunch here at work. I should probably put the honey away in my bag in the fridge in the kitchen...it's much tastier than the stuff I have at home and it keeps whispering to me...
I FOUND KERRY GOLD BUTTER AT SHAW'S! I was looking for sticks, and then I saw it, in a little tub, tucked next to some fake butter. I am happy. Unfortunately I'll still have to wait to use it, unless I have a sweet potato when I get home before I go out for dinner. Groceries will be gotten tomorrow! And the spilled bacon grease (never try cooking two bacon weaves at the same time) in the oven will be cleaned tonight! Since I also got oven cleaner =P