Look! Yet another blog post! I prepped this one yesterday.
Nameless Wonders: 2012–year in review
Thanks for the input, all. I'm still mulling it over and will probably hash it out in therapy tomorrow. Boyfriend said, "If you need to be done with it, close the group," with the options I told him. I feel really responsible for the other girls/women in my group and need to come to terms the fact that I am not responsible for their actions/choices/behavior/emotional well-being. I'm still hoping to close it on the 9th anniversary in January. That's less than a month so I want to get a decision out by this weekend. I've just closed membership so no one new can join, though no one new has joined since July anyway (and they never posted).
Sleep: I mostly laid about yesterday. I was in bed by 10:30PM, but could not fall asleep for a while. My brain was too active. I had to use a lot of tricks to get myself to relax & fall asleep, but it wasn't restful. Boyfriend came to bed sometime around 2AM and I felt suddenly wide awake. We went to sleep in the other bedroom because his back was hurting and I slept well after that (well, after I took some Ibuprofen for a raging headache). I hit the snooze for 30 min this morning, but got to work on time.
Food: I had sauteed pork & broc for lunch yesterday, a bunch of chocolate chips again (not as much as before, but there's not much left in the bag now), a clementine or two, and then chili with sweet potato. I nuked the sweet potato and dumped the chili over it (I think it would have been a tastier combo if the chili had been spicy-hot instead of just spicy). Boyfriend said it was weird without beans, but he liked it (he ate his with rice cooked in chicken stock). I used ground beef (Trader Joe's grass-fed) and beef stew chunks (cut up to roughly 1" cubes). I was pretty stuffed after dinner, probably mostly because the sweet potato was so huge, but it felt good to be full. I ended up forgoing breakfast this morning and am going to start on my first cup of ginger tea in a minute.
Body: I'm still kind of idly working in bodyweight exercises here and there. I've done my stretches every day for the past few days. In terms of feeling sick, my head felt so bad last night (pain and pressure) that I felt nauseous and dizzy and was even considering going to the doctor today, but I woke up feeling better. I used the neti pot yesterday and got a nose bleed immediately after. I used it again this morning and I feel like it made the pain in my head come back. Maybe it was just coincidence. I'm feeling overall less run down today than I did for the past few days, but I'm sure I'll be exhausted later. I've also had mild heart burn for the past few days. I wonder if it's too much citric acid (clementines, tomatoes, and all that vitamin C).
Supplements: I took 250mg of 5-HTP last night. TMI: Taking 3 capsules 2x daily of oil of oregano and pau d'arco makes me poop more, but not any easier (Vitamin C dose is still 2g). I'm going to keep up this dosage of the anti-fungals until I run out, then see if I still need them to keep the YI at bay. It's probably time to change them up, if I continue to use them, but I really feel like a longer course of antibiotics will have a longer lasting effect. I feel like a traitor for wanting antibiotics!
Mood/brain: Despite feeling kind of low this week, I seem to be pulling myself through it all okay. When I was feeling my worst yesterday, I ended up writing here about the Yahoo group. I hadn't even been thinking about it much at the time, but it was something for my brain to work on, and I felt better after. Nice that I can give my brain "mood projects" to sort out and make me feel better. I'm not sure what I want to do about the 5-HTP dose right now. I'll focus on physical wellness for now.
In other news, I sewed a patch onto the Sgt. Pepper jacket I'm giving my brother for Christmas. I want to stencil or embroider at least one more thing on it before I give it to him (I already have an octopus embroidered on the cuff). I have 3 full quart-size jars of applesauce (and one 12 oz) to gift and need to figure out who is getting them. Where does one get blank holiday cards? Walgreens didn't have any. I also need stamps.